On the first day of Christmas my true love gave to me: Opportunity !

Many, many moons ago, a little girl dreamed of a little boy and playing in the Redwood Forrest in California. For many reasons this little girl would revisit that dream ‘on purpose’ as an escape route to shut out what was occurring around her. A few years past, but the dream never changed except both this little boy and I seemed to be getting older in these dreams but the content of the dream was always the same. We were playing and I would get glimpses of things I did not understand since they seemed so far into the future about our lives. Some of it was our lives separately and some of it was mind-boggling and seemed unrealistic even to me, since it was obvious even as a child it would be so, so far into the future. It would be approximately 4 more years of just sleep walking and waking up outside and remembering the same dream and the warm fuzzy feeling it always brought to my heart; before my birth mother would run off across the country with his birth father. Still it would be another year or two before we would actually meet, face to face, ironically, across the country. This boy would end up being my step brother and life long best friend. Once again we live under the same roof as adults after over 30 years of each of us on our own path in this thing called life. I always was considered ‘the strange one'; so have no fear, if you have those thoughts while you read this #TrueStory, it won’t even hurt my feelings. (laughing.) The point of sharing this piece of the puzzle today …well it is probably another story, for another day; but you do need to know some of it to fully appreciate the rest of the story. Point today, would be to share that though, we both lived in different households at different times, we both were on #ChristmasAngelTree’s / #Toys4Tots in my #militarywife/ #civilianworker life; my  children as the recipients. Not to mention, at some point, all four of my own children have been placed on those trees in the years since. So even back in the 1960’s there was some form of #AngelTree’s as there is today.

I have been under the weather for couple weeks now,  if you only knew how literal I meant that; You would be laughing with me, right now. But everyday I wake up, I pray and give thanks for even waking up again, then promptly remind myself that ‘it really is ALL Gravy after that! even the crappy days ARE a privilege !’ In that moment I DECIDE, deal with my fears or Choose to live and walk in my faith. So after a few decades of keeping it that simple (though way easier to do today than couple decades ago, laughing) it is THAT SIMPLE for me. One of my real jobs in life I would say is taking others by the hand and getting them back to that place in their own life. Where they understand that this IS a very personal journey ….mine is mine. I can only share it with you. If I truly care, I will also share the real results, too. Then help you find your OWN! I don’t want you to have my relationship with the Creator. I want you to have your own; with your own understandings. Then;  we get to do, what I choose to call, ‘Swap some pieces of the puzzle, we each have found along our own life’s path’ and hopefully both will learn and grow from the experience. I can only share my own experience, good , bad and even ugly…but this is holiday time so that means the Miracles too. So this best friend of mine and I have not seen each other since 1981 or so until my birthday 2012. Today, I still have the honor of living in his house with him.

Did you know most people think the 12 days of Christmas have already started, but actually the First day of the 12 days of Christmas is ACTUALLY December 25th. It came up over morning coffee early this week, along with a few other odd things. It has been one of those weeks, after a couple of weeks of getting out of the dang bed  alone, was huge in my life, that I got the week no one really looks forward too. I had another mammogram, a doctors appointment and dexascan to look forward too.  I have spent the last 3 weeks on the verge of tears from being off the pain scale. So for me, it was a week of looking to ‘get my #HopeOn ‘, while secretly praying I would be physically able to just get up, bathed, dressed and out to go to 3 appointments when I knew how bad I really was feeling. To be honest, I was kinda getting pissy from being home alone and feeling so bad. But life on life’s terms, sometimes, is not so pretty. But I needed something to look forward to in order to get my #HopeOn . So Monday night, Jimmy called me to give me a medicine reminder and his voice was emotional; as he briefly told me there were 3 tags still on #Angeltree at  the job he is so grateful to be working for the seasonal influx. He asked if we could we talk about it when he got home if I was still up.

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5 days have past since I started this story and did some revising on it the next day. Then life on life’s terms, mother earth and the weather have been progressively kicking my butt. Those that know me , KNOW I do not exaggerate an iota when I say; ‘I make Murphy’s Law take on a whole new meaning, with my luck in many areas.’  I, defy the odds mathematically but honestly it may have to do with the deal I made with the Creator before I entered this robe. I say this since so much more has occurred in the last 5 days….so know I am still PRAYING like my own life depends on it and trying to find and hold the hope till the winter equinox this week. Marking the official end of this trek I have been asked to take on, with this Creator of admittedly my own misunderstanding since 2006. So note it may affect the tone of the story. So though, I have decided to spend this time in prayer and writing…..I do hope to have this story finished in time offline to post it online in time for the holiday(s). So let’s get back to the story now: Hoka Hey!

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So my best friend Jimmy asked if we could talk about it when he got home that night if I was still awake. I said of course. It reminded me of just before he started this temp job how  I had asked him  to step out in faith…just a baby step of total utter faith that if we commit…the Creator will provide it. a $5 commitment monthly for a year. Even when we can’t see….So we made a 5 dollar per month commitment to a worthy cause, #KLove with me on disability of peanuts and him still unemployed when I asked him to do this. But he said even though he had no idea where we can even squeeze five bucks from to keep our word. Especially after a year of falling farther and farther behind financially and trying to keep our word with businesses but then things beyond our control kept happening; this entire year. So this baby step was HUGE for him. No Job, no promise of a job even a temp or seasonal one, no money except 5 bucks and some change on my  Wal-Mart prepaid gold card. But all year he has listened to Daily audio Bible with me and listening to K Love radio station daily whenever we step into the garage. So on that morning  I prayed and it was something placed on my heart. So, afterward I went  inside and asked him to step out with me on just a 5 dollar commitment, BLINDLY, in what ever faith he has worked on this past year. He almost floored me when he said yes and replied quickly, no less. You need to understand he has always worried and stressed over money…pushing himself through life to provide. So for him this was a Huge step. I was so proud of him to tell you the truth. I believe that was on a Saturday or Sunday and he was contacted within the next 24 hours about this seasonal job and interviewing for it. He got it. Thank goodness because at least, we could catch up the utilities and pay December’s mortgage payment. that was 5 or 6 weeks ago (give or take) and today he had a panic attack at that job when he realized he was working his next to last day. Then the worry and stress of January started. minor panic attack on the job. Meanwhile today I was home having major panic attacks of my own. life on life’s terms….etc.

Back to that night last week or so, he shared with me the story of his child hood wanting a castle for his army men, soldiers etc. and how he asked for it every year, from Santa Claus. He did that for several years but never got it. How hurt he was over that one thing. Today he understands it was probably a matter of finances. As a child, we don’t know those things yet.  I shared my experience with him about my thing  over red shoes. Having grew up in California, I own flip flaps that stayed in cars while I usually went bare foot. I wanted this pair of Red Paton Leather shoes that almost looked like Dorothy’s in the Wizard of Oz movie. No sparkles, but shiny red and strap over the instep with the buckle. I saw them with my grandpa one day. Well one of the neighbors was my Christmas angel that year. She got those red paton leather shoes for me. I proceeded to tell him how it made me feel when my mother made me walk them as well as the other gifts sent over back to her door. Then, knock on the door and have to tell her that I could not accept them. I was devastated! So we, once again stepped out in utter faith, Jimmy in his and me in mine. He asked if he took one of those 3 tags would I be willing to  ‘chip in’ on it, with him. Lets make sure this child gets a Christmas. We decided on his next day off we were gonna take money that had been ear marked for another thing in life and put it off a bit longer and go shopping for whomever he got. The next day he called me for my med reminder and to tell me that after he pulled the card the security guard gave him the name of a 4 yr old little boy. WOW, what are the odds. But then he also told me what was on this kids list. I believe I actually cried when he told me because to me it sounded like a social worker kinda list (not saying it was) but it gave his clothes and shoe size and asked for a puzzle and music….to me as a mother grandmother and great grandmother it sounded like this child needed way worse than we do and trust me we are  hurting financially. At least we have, as adults, ways to attempt to do something but this kids doesn’t. So when Jimmy got home on his next day off we shopped and we got what was on the list and then we got a few more things all little boys from 4+ up love and a few other little things. We shopped as I have shopped for 25 yrs….best bang for my buck and doing business with people that conduct business in a good way when ever possible supporting my local community and neighbors business. So we found some good deals and the pure joy I got to witness on Jimmy’s face while we shopped for this little boy made me so grateful it was worth the pain. But in truth, it was also part of my daily walking therapy for my cardio and other issues that require moving even with the OMG pain. Every uncomfortable step was worth it but we decided beforehand we were both willing to suffer a bit, to ensure this child gets a nice Christmas. So a day or two later after I had wrapped everything up, Jimmy took it to work. He said the guards were shocked by how much he brought in to go under the tree. He was kind of excited to see the reaction at work. I commented back to him that maybe it would inspire others to do just a little bit more this year. Today, he reported that it did have a ripple effect. Others stepped up and did just a tad more like we did. After the day I had, hearing of his day and this news of it rippling; that was hopeful for me. Poor guy has been on nights and they switched him to days for last few days. So he too is exhausted today, but I was so grateful that even as exhausted as he was he made sure I got a therapy whirlpool mat in the tub before he went to bed around 8 pm. I on the other hand can’t sleep from the pain tonight….won’t be able to till the snow gets a tad bit closer and then I get new things for the day to deal with. I almost get a narcoleptic effect when it is coming in, just before the rain, sleet or snow. As in I uncontrollably fall asleep… in the middle of a bite of food, in the middle of a sentence, in the middle of and then I never know if it will be 45 minutes of napping or 5-6 hours but what I do know is I promptly wake back up as soon as it starts raining, sleeting, snowing…like a minute or three before or after, literally. So tonight I am up…doing what I do best….Praying for all mother earth when really today I don’t feel well enough to, but that is not the point is it? the point is I am willing and so I push myself to do it, to pray ceremonially, daily. So to my doctors, that is the extent of my smoking and prayer is the purpose of it. Since the my teachings from the elders across this fine nation and one or three others….I will always continue to pray in a sacred way daily.

But back to the results of stepping out in that faith with the shopping…with money earmarked for something entirely different. After we were done, shopping we stopped at one of our favorite home away from homes…to buy tobacco and because of what I save buying them there, means I have a buck or two to sit and play the 8 cent machines. A mental health therapy….and they even send us weekly vouchers to spend playing as well.  It is the only place, if I am really hurting that Jimmy will leave me with a 5 dollar bill to sit and play and he will run the errands right in the area. So anyhow, I had also been having problems getting any solid food in, which is when I hear my elder remind me what is my motive and intention…well to eat and hold it down and keep things moving….so when I get like this; since last Christmas, there have been times I drink a glass or two of dark red wine to help me be able to eat and digest. So I ordered a glass of wine hoping to be able to eat when we got home in a wee bit. Only it kept hitting. nothing big but 25 bucks is HUGE in my life. So the results were I had two glasses of wine, they brought out food samples, we played a few hours and walked out with almost half the money we really did not have to spend shopping that day for that little boy but it was a step out in faith day. That was the result. Almost half the money we did not have to spend came immediately back into our hands.

Next time we went out, I had appointments that day. So we went in between the two appointments to that favorite spot, hung out and played with a bit of their money for the ‘tween’ time and then went to next doctor appointment and came home, both of us exhausted ….and we walked out with tad bit more of the ‘step out in faith money’ we had spent. I only know One way, take someone by the hand and show them what they do not see from rushing thru life or through lack of knowledge or just simple common curiosity.

So while it has been an extremely difficult month in more ways than I want to discuss, another day, another story…none of my appointments left me hopeful so I really was struggling to just Find something to get my #HopeOn over.

But not this; Creator, God of my Misunderstanding….I know how to survive. I know how to pray and I know thing before during and after they happen…I feel some, I see some, some come in the form of dreams, some in the form of instantly knowing something there is no way for me to know. But I really do hate when I know certain things beforehand and I can’t do anything except prepare others for what is about to happen, even when I know they won’t or don’t want to hear. Like a dear friend Jeff I told would one day go up on the mountain and come down white-headed; like someone else did, in the bible. It was years but it did come to pass. I don’t get to pick what I know and sometime to be honest I do get to pick how much I know or choose not to know. All my life….and distance of others doesn’t even matter…for trust me on this…we are all connected and if you know how, you won’t even need a phone to get a message to another person your plugged into. But to do this, first you must give your life, trust and love to our Creator,  the Christed One and respect all inhabitants of Mother Earth….they hold EQUAL importance in our Creator’s eyes. Each has a job to maintain the balance on Mother Earth.

Taking care of the children is ensuring we will have a future…but please, NOW, more than ever …take care of your neighbors, your communities and if things are wrong then step up and try to point out the problems. Choose to become part of the Solutions. Be willing to BRIDGE the gaps that religions, dogmas, sect, ect have put between us. Let us walk into 2014 intending on no matter what; WE WILL CHOOSE TO LIVE IN CIRCLES. In native terms that means, first your house and it inhabitants, then your neighbors, then your street, then your community, then your city, then your state. Step up in 2014 and commit to just do the right thing MEERLY because in that moment. YOU CAN> do it daily. Commit to praying/talking/even yelling daily at this God of your own misunderstanding…the one you want to commit to having a relationship with.

Personally, after that first rainbow in my recovery with the pathway to the mailbox and my first entry to #PCH ; to be very honest I fired the god I THOUGHT I understood, ya know the one whom had surely already damned me to hell by age 10. I honestly believed that! That it did not matter, what I did I was going anyhow, so I may as well enjoy the ride…Today, I realize how sad that truly is. But I fired that CONCEPT and started praying to a green night table lamp….I was too angry at the god I thought I understood….Thank goodness people took time, with me, took me by the hand and helped me find my road. As today, I try to help Jimmy find his own…I am proud of the progress he has made in this last year.  Especially in view of the hand life has recently dealt him. Trust me when I tell you that he was not ready to hear about stepping out in faith not being the same as talking about it. He himself has had some hard lessons in that area,  in the last year and half. He has grown in so many ways….but it takes feeling safe first. So our Christmas….

On the First day of Christmas my true love gave to me : Opportunity….for both of us to do some childhood healing; we each separately needed to do. I know it means everytime he thinks about the smile that he got to put on some little boys face someplace; I will get to see that Jimmy Smile again…that is Priceless for me. Best Gift there is…..Opportunity to do some healing and help another child out and do some personal healing thru those Stepping Out in Faith Actions. Creator does want your resume HUH?!?! S/He knows it. S/He wants you to come willing to seek your own answers and your personal relationship with God; our Creator, by whatever name you choose to call him, her, it. See that your actions MATCH your words, or you may find no one listens. Try to be mindful of what you utter in 2014…what you speak Will come forth…but maybe not like you expected so watch your words (self included) and take that PAUSE before you answer. I know when I do that, it works…when I do it.

So on the First day of Christmas, my true love for me through out my life….gave to me the Opportunity…to help someone else and help him be able to see to it that little boy’s has a fabulous Christmas, wherever he may be. The biggest message is to BRING THE  HOPE….. Hope comes in many forms and they all look LIKE OPPORTUNITIES TO ME. Each one in my life has been priceless and worth the personal sacrifice… for the good of the ALL…. Knowing that I will continue to Pray for each one of you throughout 2014….. HOKA HEY!….Let’s Ride. It has been an honor to share with you this day….my way.

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PRAYER REQUEST / Please take to the lodges world wide

Reno Residents of Native American Indian background…it has been requested that a blessing be given upon Eddie Lorton for Mayor office and campaign. I call forth All Nations to bring this request to LODGE this week. I am willing to do the blessing IF the Lodges and Pipes world wide will back me up. I can vouch the man is part Cherokee and walks an honorable road with strong ethics ‘for the good of the all’, here in Reno, NV. I will wait for the usual way of responses….and see all y’all in this Sundays Lodges. Personally, I back this man and all he has already done for the peoples of Reno, Nv. He Felt strongly enough; he did these things on his own dime no less.
http://www.eddielorton.net

https://www.facebook.com/EddieLortonReno

http://www.linkedin.com/in/eddielorton

I ask this in a good way
Wado/ Ski Woman walkin in Faith, it is I, Zentagu’e Onana.
Tobacco will be put out on the healing tree at dusk today.

The other hurdle will be District 25 Assemblyman position, between these two offices I truly ‘See’ a Vision of a Rebirth for Reno….finally! Vote the unknown name, that is the only one to bother to get an out of state CANDIDATE VERIFICATION to run for Dist. 25 Assemblyman …Keep your eyes out for it posting! (Niklas H. Putnam in FB) …Please make no mistake This is MY VISION not either man endorsing the other. As far as I know they do not even know each other. Hopefully the VOTERS will change that. Those two rubbing elbows can do much good for Reno Residents, just sayin’

YOU just won’t listen, OMG!

First let me start with this morning and someone (probably the person that stole my last cell phone before I got a government cell) YOU won’t be able to sign into my FACEBOOK (nor any other accounts of mine online) without my government cell I am on a two step verification and have been for several months now. SO someone DOES KNOW WHO IS DOING THIS. I am currently waiting for UPS/FED EX to bring by the shipping materials to send MY new 13 month old laptop back to HP and then on I AM SURE to appropriate authorities. Fasten your seat belts boys and girls, because I know who is on my side and I faithfully walk the RED ROAD.

Secondly, I find it even more interesting that I asked Judge Chuck Weller a specific question concerning courting of our young people to AA or NA rooms and within minutes …. MY LAPTOP had no internet, yet my brothers tower did! So even though IT was THURSDAY NIGHT I called CHARTER, thankfully I get an out of state call center! WHO by the way has been KEEPING track of ALL the incident reports made for many months now. After reviewing my records (in my brothers name) THEY agreed since my laptop was hard wired in, they needed to do an Tap to find out who is doing this EXACTLY. That someone would come out to do that on FRIDAY, but no one showed. While on the phone with the employee, she managed to get me limited internet, which did not last long…but long enough for my to send a twitter or two. Where I hash-tagged the #FCC and said I believe that someone is RIGGING the election or trying to IN #RENO Nevada. As soon as that was posted @EDDIELORTON and reminded Reno residents to PAY ATTENTION and that @NiklasHPutnam is running for District 25 Asse4mblyman and is having a CANDIDATE VERIFICATION done and due to release PUBLICLY any day now, look for it and personally I believe EVERY CANDIDATE SHOULD HAVE TO PASS ONE TO EVEN BE ALLOWED TO RUN, PERIOD!……****BAM**** no internet. So when no one showed Friday, I really was NOT surprised. But then I called Charter back on Saturday to find out why no one showed up nor did we get a call, and told them how I knew this is an inside job…this is when I found out that within one hour of the thursday night call stating they were going to put a tap on the internet line….SOMEONE CALLED AND CANCELLED OUR SERVICE ALL TOGETHER!!!! Since my brother and I were sitting side by side watching rented DVDs, we did not make the cancellation call! So who did? Who has that authority? Reno residents WAKE UP AND DANG IT SPEAK UP! IF YOU VOTE THE SAME GARBAGE OR VOTE for the one THAT GARBAGE IS ENDORSING then this NIGHTMARE will NEVER END. WATCH THURSDAY NIGHT MAYORAL DEBATE> I have no clue if I will be able to since I have several times this year tried to do Whitehouse conferences and signed up in advance and FEMA conferences but funny how I am signed in and waiting for it to start and *****BAM**** no internet until it is over. Same thing happened when I tried to watch the first #RENOMAYORAL2014 Debate, no cable (also provided by Charter) until the debate was over! I watched news later that night and got clips of it in the news.
So I tried texting from my government cell to Eddie Lorton who is running for mayor and couldn’t so I tried calling from my brothers Phone and ironically IT WOULD NOT EVEN RING and I tired several times.
BY some miracle the number did show up on EDDIE LORTON’S phone as a missed call so he called me on Sunday. Since he had another appiontment I did not get to talk long and was trying to speed up the story so he could get about his business of his day. But what I did learn is that NIKLAS H. PUTNAM is not going to be on the ballot! WHAT THE HELL/ HE IS THE ONLY ONE THAT IS GETTING A CANDIDATE VERIFICATION…LIKE EDDIE LORTON ON HIS ON DIME, BOTH OF THESE MEN HAVE BEEN STEPPING UP FOR ‘WE THE PEOPLE’ ON THEIR OWN DIME AND THEIR OWN TIME. IF WE THE PEOPLE DO NOT BACK AT LEAST THESE TWO CANDIDATES ALL HELL WILL BREAK LOOSE IN RENO, NEVADA. IF YOU THINK IT IS CORRUPT NOW…HOKA HEY, YOU GOT NO IDEA what will come next! I do but everyone is too busy call me the nut. Too bad I have a record to via the government and you all still don’t know me. YET SUNDAY when I went out to the only place I go in public for some R&R you would be amazed how many Candidates came in that day to check me out. NONE with the BALLS TO SPEAK WITH me, though! BUT they all managed to speak about me and loud enough to make sure I could hear.
I am disabled, NOT STUPID! I have been graced with leaving a Military Job as a civilian, whom had a touch of rank (laughing) and ran the 19th hold and SNCO club and O Club overseer and even did the E club upon occasions. To realizing I could not work in that capacity in 1988. So I went back to school for computer sciences….before there even was a world wide web! it was just hush hush talk when I was in school. Heck Apple computers did not even have a mouse until my last year! I was one of the two the teacher would allow to use the mouse to reprogram with back then. Back in those days you did it all from a keyboard or it could be done. Todays layers ARE ALL BUILT UPON THE FOUNDATION OF WHAT I LEARNED back then. Hence how I could tell Charter this was an inside job when my laptop was hardwired in.
When the same guy did show up on saturday, He did a drive thru at 230pm and realised he was already to this house this month and he did not return till 430 and HE was PISSED when he came in the door. AGAIN TELLING buy an APPLE…no problem I surely can do that living on 741dollars per MONTH! On disability since MAY 1990 which started out as 497 per month and I had to raise kids on that no less, while towing the line for every county, state and federal agency and social security along the way. OMG YOU HAVE NO IDEA to the extent I have had to tow the line. But I have legally and honorably while I learned my heritage and the ways of it and the Lakota peoples (since my elders were Cherokee and Lakota) SO PLEASE SOMEONE TELL ME HOW I CAN BUY AN APPLE COMPUTER OF ANY KIND WITHOUT LYING CHEATING OR STEALING? NEVERMIND appropriate security for it and pay for a month service on it? ESPECIALLY SINCE I PAY my sibling 600 a month to live here and signed papers so he would not loose this house after everyone has been stealing from him. And he was illegally fired from a job after his Kidney Cancer surgery and this state would not even give him NV medicaid until the last month? So we still do not know if he is cancer free or not.

This morning (Tuesday) someone is trying to get into my FACEBOOK, too bad the phone you stole last year will not longer work HUH? not any of the fake emails you set up trying to get the verification that way. I (KNOW, meaning by means most can’t access because they do no walk with Creator, God of my own Misunderstanding as I do. AND trust me I wake close, I am as accurate as Sylvia Brown but I don’t do business in the same manner as the rest)

MY FINAL THOUGHTS ARE THIS: WATCH THE DEBATE THURSDAY NIGHT THIS WEEK ON KOLO or which ever channel you get it AND if the Intel I received is true and NIKLAS H. PUTNAM name is not on the ballot for District 25 Assemblyman….Reno Residents, THEN WRITE IT IN! YOU HAVE THE RIGHT TO WRITE IN ANY NAME AND IF IT GETS ENOUGH VOTES IT will be on the ELECTION IN NOVEMBER. These are the only two, I KNOW are honest and actually doing for the good of the ALL in RENO. AND neither is even in offices yet nor have they been, yet they have been fighting for your rights! You do not Know Niklas PUtnam name because he has been SERVING OUR COUNTRY, He is now ready to SERVE RENO and has been. With the drones coming to our area WE NEED HIM IN THAT ASSEMBLYMAN position, or you will once again see the business start here but the jobs leave the area. And no taxes being taken in either.

@BarrickGold , Niklas H. Putnam could use the same help you gave our schools when the current Commissioner felt it was not even worthy of a vote on the update on the Washoe County schools in and around Reno, NV. So if I could ask 1 favor, it would be find this man some backing so he can properly be placed on the ballot. In Facebook soon if not already since my internet is being guided (shall we say) by who know which crooked politician(s) in Nevada. I pray you will research him and find it in your heart and best interest of Reno, Nv to ‘FIND’ him some funding. His Campaign page is in Facebook. I don’t go there for nothing, any more.

Then folks laugh when I share that I much rather be around animals than people. they laugh harder when I share my recovery story when I honestly tell them I HATE people as a general rule of thumb. Somehow others see me as a lil socialite because I have learned how to do the public pleasantries. Make no mistake the woman that birthed me taught me well how to be a vicious _unt, do not mistake me choosing not to live that way; as not being able to be one in an instant.
AND in closing, I want to remind others that while I am physically disabled, The Creator will give whatever I need when I am being threatened….IF you break into this house again; I with the Creators help will be waiting for you. Take note; it has never been me that had to go to the hospital after. One more break in and I will apply for a conceal and carry. My brother says I can’t have a gun in his house…GOD says otherwise, I can move even right here in my truck. I will not leave RENO, NV until I can leave it better than I found it since I came here April 21 2012!

Which bring up another point, how can I get online and get the same news for a week or two? and it NEVER changes?

Elder’s Meditation of the Day May 21

Elder’s Meditation of the Day

“A vision could put you on a path you don’t want to follow.”
–Archie Fire Lame Deer, LAKOTA

There is a saying, “You move toward and become like that which you think about.” If we keep thinking about a bad thing, we will move in that direction. If we think about fear in some area of our life, we will probably experience this fear. We move toward and become like that which we think about. If we think about secret things, these secret things will come to pass. Our visions are very powerful. Visions determine our direction, our lives. If you think about lustful things, it’s a matter of time before you’ll be wrestling with it. We should think about our visions to make sure they include the Great Spirit in every area.

Great Spirit, today, give me Your vision to follow.

SOMETHING EXTRA TO THINK ABOUT

Msit Nókmaq/All My Relations,
When we keep our minds positive very little goes wrong, but when we change to negative things havoc comes forth. This is why we need to seek out good things in our lives. Daily news programs hardly ever tell of something good, so why watch it? There needs to be balance of good and bad not bad out weighing the good. Visions are a part of our well being and sometimes it is not good to pursue the vision after all.
~ Arthur Medicine Eagle- Sonier, MEGAMAW

Gitsch Manito-Creator,Wásóq-Spiritworld, Please help me to find balance in my life. Help me to see negative but not live it. Show me a direction where I can find the balance I need to live a good life.
Welálin/ Thank You, Msit Nókmaq, Chi~Miigwetch, Mitauke Oyasin

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Elder’s Meditation of the Day May 20

Elder’s Meditation of the Day

“The sacred ceremonies given to us by the Creator are the Heart of our existence. These ceremonies are our first duty.”
–Traditional Circle of Elders. NORTHERN CHEYENNE

Hidden in the ceremonies are many truths, many principles, many guidelines for living— our access to the Unseen World, healing and visions. Because the Indian People didn’t have schools or books, the Great Spirit gave us Ceremonies. The ceremonies are handed down from generation to generation to learn their meaning. Today, many Indian People live in cities or urban areas where it’s hard to learn the ceremonies. We need to go to the Elders and learn the ceremonies so we can pass them on to our children.

Great Spirit, teach me the Secrets of the Ceremonies.

SOMETHING EXTRA TO THINK ABOUT

Msit Nókmaq/All My Relations,
When a ceremony is opened and prayers have been offered for direction, How can one say it was done wrong? If that person wrote the book of rules on ceremony then maybe it could be true. But when Creator and the directions have been asked then who are we to tell another they are wrong or criticize them for their efforts. Prayer and Spirituality does not belong to any human, It all belongs to Creator.
~ Arthur Medicine Eagle-Sonier, MEGAMAW

Gitsch Manito-Creator, Wásóq-Spiritworld, Thank you for guiding me in the ways Please help my heart to remain true to the families. Please help me to distinguish right from wrong.
Welálin/ Thank You, Msit Nókmaq, Chi~Miigwetch, Mitauke Oyasin

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Elder’s Meditation of the Day May 19

Elder’s Meditation of the Day

“To be able to greet the sun with the sounds from all of Nature is a great blessing, and it helps us to remember Who is the real provider of all of our benefits.”
–Thomas Yellowtail, CROW

The Elders say we should pray to the East every morning. Just try it! Get up early in the morning, watch the sun and listen to the morning sounds, the birds, the winds; smell the air, feel the breeze and the warmth of the sun. Your mid will expand and you will experience oneness with the Great Spirit. You’ll realize who is really in charge. You’ll realize an interconnectedness. You’ll realize how much the Creator loves you! Just try it!

Great Spirit, today, let me feel the Earth, the Father Sun and your presence.

SOMETHING EXTRA TO THINK ABOUT

Msit Nókmaq/All My Relations,
Everyday just before the sun comes up all of the birds sing. I often wonder if they are praying and thanking creator for the new day. As Grandpa used to tell me “Watch the animals and they will teach
you”, Maybe this is one of those lessons on making sure to give thanks for what we are about to receive. How can I better my day? “It can be done with a simple Thank you to Creator”.

Gitsch Manito-Creator, Wásóq-Spiritworld, My life seems so different and full of goodness since you took alcohol and drugs away from me. All the things I was shown as a child are now coming back to me and it is my time to pass it on. Thank you for taking away my living hell. Thank you for allowing me the health to fulfill your wishes. Welálin/ Thank You, Msit Nókmaq, Chi~Miigwetch, Mitauke Oyasin
~ Arthur Medicine Eagle-Sonier, MEGAMAW

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Elder’s Meditation of the Day May 18

Elder’s Meditation of the Day

“…Grandmother the Earth. That power is here all the time. It is continuous, and nobody controls it.”
–Wallace Black Elk, LAKOTA

There are certain powers that the human being has no choice but to obey. We cannot negotiate or barter with this power. Our choice is either to conform or to live out of harmony. Whatever our choice, it will be the end result in our lives that we notice. So it is with the powers of the Earth which produce life. The Earth has the life force power. If anyone plants a seed, the seed will grow. The Earth treats everyone equally. The human cannot interfere, only obey. We should all show great respect for the Earth and Her powers.

Great Spirit, today, let me honor and respect the power of the Grandmother, the Earth.

SOMETHING EXTRA TO THINK ABOUT

Msit Nókmaq/ All My Relations,
Man “not-so” kind learned about the powers of the earth a long time ago. Man has harnessed the plutonium and uranium for bombs of mass destruction or Murder in the name of God. The balance of this earth is equal. Good and bad are on equal basis it is how we humans choose to use the two that will determine if we survive and remain on earth or not.
~ Arthur Medicine Eagle-Sonier, MEGAMAW

Gitsch Manito-Creator, Wásóq-Spiritworld, Thank you for showing me the powers within and allowing me a choice to save instead of destroy. Please help my brothers and sisters to see what they are doing to this earth by all the mass weapon manufacturing of today. Help them to find a change of heart and come back to the place where they were meant to be instead of seeking to destroy all life. Give me strength to make a stand to say “NO! We are tired of the killings”.
Welálin/ Thank You, Msit Nókmaq, Chi~Miigwetch, Mitauke Oyasin

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Elder’s Meditation of the Day May 17

Elder’s Meditation of the Day

“If the Great Spirit wanted men to stay in one place He would make the world stand still; but He made it to always change…”
–Chief Flying Hawk, OGLALA SIOUX

The Elders tell us change occurs in two directions. They say, “That which is built is constantly being destroyed; that which is loose is being used to build the New.” In other words, change is constantly going on. Many times we hear people say, “I hate change.” Does it make sense that the Great Spirit would design people to hate it? The Great Spirit designed people with change abilities such as visioning, imagery and imagination. Maybe we need to learn to use these tools and then we’ll look forward to change.

Great Spirit, today, let me see the harmony of Yours, truly changing world.

SOMETHING EXTRA TO THINK ABOUT

Msit Nókmaq/All My Relations,
In the Armed Forces they tell you to dig a hole and then when you are done they decide it was the wrong spot so they have you cover the one up and dig a new one. This makes for character adjustment and tolerance but at the time it is happening we only look at it as someone making us mad. When we learn to meld into the walk of life we can see things we did not see before. We learn to adapt but not and try to understand more efficiently. How does a butterfly start out as what we consider ugly then come forth as a beautiful flying creature? This mystery is what we humans should be learning in our lives. We all can be those Butterflies.
~Arthur Medicine Eagle-Sonier, MEGAMAW

Gitsch Manito-Creator,Wásóq-Spiritworld, Thank you for the changing of things. Seasons change and the earth and people do too. I am honored that you allow me to be a part of this great process or metamorphosis. Only you Creator have that answer and I thank you for sharing it with me.
Welálin/ Thank You, Msit Nókmaq, Chi~Miigwetch, Mitauke Oyasin

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Elder’s Meditation of the Day May 16

Elder’s Meditation of the Day

“It’s time. If you are to walk the path of heart, then it is time…”
–Nippawanock, ARAPAHOE

If not now, when? If not me, who? To walk the path of the heart is a great honor. Every human has the choice to walk this path, but very few will decide to make it. Why? Well, because you can’t act and behave like everyone else behaves. You must be the person who will learn to look within. You must be the person who will be fully accountable for yourself. You must be the person who prays and meditates. You must be the person who will sacrifice. You must decide to be a Peaceful Warrior. What will you decide today?

Oh, Great Mystery, lead me on the path of the heart.

SOMETHING EXTRA TO THINK ABOUT

Msit Nókmaq/All My Relations,
The path has many logs laying across it and also streams and rivers,there are lakes and oceans so we learn to cross many of them and if we can we also learn to go around them. We must not expect others to be like us because we are not clones in the sense of robots. We have looked at many beliefs and religions trying to find our peace but we failed,then we started walking the path and began looking within ourselves and all of a sudden we see the universe open up to us. Life was a wreck until we were led to the path. We found something We were looking for many years. We finally decided to look inside our self and found that all the answers had been there all along .
~ Arthur Medicine Eagle-Sonier, MEGAMAW

Gitsch Manito-Creator, Wásóq-Spiritworld, Thank you for allowing me such an honor to walk the path. Thank you for helping me to find myself. Thank you for walking with me all these years.
Welálin/Thank You, Msit Nókmaq, Chi~Miigwetch, Mitauke Oyasin

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