What is means to be American Indian Christian in Todays World

I sit here wondering and groaning out to my Creator, God of my own misunderstanding. …not to mention crying, Why, Why, Oh my Lord WHY?

I have tried to start 3 online businesses since last August so that maybe I could afford to live….Heck I can’t even afford to die! I have towed every government agency line….reporting everything to each one and honestly, no less. What have I gotten for this?

I have helped every lost cause case God sent my way. Even other people that I knew had bad Intentions and they have sent a lost or hopeless cause my way. Just to try and sidetrack me. Yet, I opened my doors and helped the lost causes, fed the hungry when I had nothing to be feeding anyone else. Put shoes that were new and gifted to me on someone else’s feet because they obviously needed them more. And what has been my repayment here on earth?

I have been honest to my own detriment even. Those that know me well will tell you just how honest I am…. if only you show me enough respect to bother to ask me, you will get an honest answer from me. What has this gotten me?

And some can see in my Facebook page of 4/14/15 high school pics of me and my track record even then while in utter turmoil for a home life, that I cared and what I cared ABOUT and still Do! But what has this gotten me?

I have dealt with alcoholics, addicts and even lying and thieving family. And of course, who do they Always throw under the bus? Of course the one that is honest and helping them personally.  What has this gotten me? No family.

But when I was sent across the country and helping others along the way is when I really started not liking two leggeds!  Ashamed even to be one today. What has all of this gotten me? Heartbroken more than anyone will ever know.

Nothing here on Mother Earth…. nothing but more heart ache and taken advantage of by every conceivable self centered and self righteous jerk walking and talking or online.

So while I have had my entire life hacked apart and every bit of my personal info stolen and used. I can’t use it! I know there is so much irony in there. ….but for the life of me. I am crying out to my Creator,  God of my own misunderstanding. …..WHY WHY IN THE NAME OF THECHRISTED ONE, IS THIS HAPPENING?

I was not intending to be a saint…. I was merely going for becoming a decent Human BEING in a very uncomfortable vehicle called this body. I was going for being Part of the #Solutions and for that my whole life has been dismantled and hacked. Ironically who ever wants to can apparently use my info even though they can’t prove they are me….. and yet I can’t .

I have been trying to untangle my life from another family members and in the interim I can’t get answers from the Bank of America on new accounts I opened…. And the 2 to 5 biz days for my permanent bank cards still are not in and I applied on March 31st. Heck even the 7 to 10 days if they had not been expedited has come and gone. And I have been homeless since April 2nd. Today is tax day, April 15th. No answers. I was pre approved for a small credit card of $500 with $99 secured. They can’t tell me anything on that except it was cancelled on April 2nd. They can’t even tell me by whom! So there went my fragile trust in our banking system of America.  3 online businesses vanished as soon as they got my money. Kitsy lane, IPas and IPas2 and then Vemma/GPS changed to VBS….like  I said as soon as they got my money and attached my accounts. In my little Penny world it IS A HUGE DEAL TO ME….ESPECIALLY WHEN THE BANK CAN’T ANSWER QUESTIONS!

Even family has made my info vulnerable by giving it away to ex spouses and kids. But heck, even 2 of my own daughters has done such things to me.

Faith….Faith in humans? Faith in our banks? Faith in online businesses? Faith in our goverment? Faith in our law officials? Nope…..they have robbed me of all they could!

Only FAITH I HAVE LEFT CAN’T BE DUPPED NOR STOLEN….

ONLY FAITH I HAVE LEFT IS IN OUR CREATOR, GOD OF MY OWN MISUNDERSTANDING AND THE CHRISTED ONE. All y’all CAN’T steal that!  It is the gift of Grace from God himself.

But all y’all have me in fight or flight mode, AGAIN, so you can smile abd chuckle while you read this.

BUT KNOW THIS, I MAY HAVE GOTTEN THE SHORT END OF THE DEAL HERE ON MOTHER EARTH but I will be the ONE WAVING AT YOU FROM HEAVEN as you go wherever the Creator sees fit.

I should have kept heading to Michigan….worse that could have happened is I may have gotten caught up in the tornado in Illinois. …..today that isn’t sounding like such a bad option.

I have Too good of a heart and spirit to be here trying to help others.

That is what I get for honorably walking the red road and being  a decent Human Being…..maybe I am going for sainthood and just didn’t get the snail mail nor email. Even that been getting hacked or opened before I get to view it.

I am a woman walkin in faith, in a world filled with demons. I am ready to just jump in my truck and drive till the tires fall off and live right there. If I am lucky.,,,, there won’t be any family, banks, or two leggeds wherever I land. Just animals, they wither like you because they sense your spirit or don’t like you. And even unlike the Angels….they CAN’T lie,

I am done helping others and questioning God still….,WHY? Now I know how Mother Teresa must have felt. ….

My advice: Do not bother Trying to be honorable or decent. And God forbid, do not tell the truth. ….it only makes you a victim in this ugly world.  And I am over it.

I forgive all y’all. …. the rest is between you and God of your own misunderstanding. I can’t even say I will pray for anyone anymore. …..are y’all happy now? You have done well at making my life a tormented one and it WON’T be me YOU have to answer to for those ACTIONS. May the Creator have mercy on your soul!

Womanwalkininfaith

AN OPEN LETTER TO ALL MEDICINE PEOPLE WHO DISRESPECT WOMEN AND TWO SPIRIT PEOPLE

WomanWalkinInFaith:

Wado and A’HO Mitakyue Oyasin

Originally posted on Muxeres en Movimiento - SoCal:

Whe-Wa of Zuni

Dear all Medicine People from the 4 directions,

I do not care how old you are, I do not care what spiritual tradition or tribe you come from, I do not care if you are a sundancer, I do not care if you are full blooded, if you are Mexica, Orisha, or First Nation. None of that excuses you from spreading stories and ideas that degrade women and erase the histories of two spirit people.

I will no longer stand to hear stories in which women are portrayed as less than or subservient to a men being passed off as traditional stories. These are lies, women have always either been equal to men or seen as more worthy of leadership than men because they know how to bring life into the world, they know how to keep peace, and they know how to tell men that battles and war are…

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Scams

BE very careful …..now the scammers are using  *67 so their number comes up as unknown. I have had two supposed federal government Grant calls in the last 7 days. Called them on it being a scam and told them the First call I was going to put it on y Facebook and report it to FBI. Which I did. So today’s call came in as unknown. But it was the SAME foreign voice,  and I said, so let me guess you Need me to buy a green dot card to pay the processing fees, right? He said yes and asked how I knew. And I told him because I got your call end of last week and you are on the FBI scam list online you dummy! Not to mention I listened on speaker phone 4 times they called my brothers phone and have had them call me about the same amount of times since end of last year. 

The other one they are using is a you owe taxes scam and trying to get you in a panic.

I wish I could say that is all the scams but as I just learned the hard way……don’t buy any online businesses either. Most of them are scams and keeps you busy going thru their training university and once you give them you card number, they got you. I had to go to my bank several times in the last month over issues. …now I won’t shop nor do any business online nor by phone. DO NOT GIVE ANYONE YOUR INFO UNLESS YOU CAN LOOK THEM IN THE EYE AND SWIPE YOUR BANK OR CREDIT CARD YOURSELF..,JUST DON’T! #JustSayin Think and don’t let anyone hurry you and I got to add pray about it first.

Heck I got neighbors getting and opening my mail before the mailman gets it into my locked mailbox. I even am Getting some really cute tape when it gets taped back up and finally arrives in my locked mailbox.

Once again, I am going to remind my neighbors, do not think you will be any kind of exception….I had two of my four children arrested before, so please do not think because we live in the good old boy wild west show out here that I won’t have you arrested. If you need references maybe you need to call federal MARSHALLS office in Asheville, NC…. they will tell you i will Let you hang yourself with that rope and you better start Praying they don’t come a knocking on my door like they did in 2005.

Walk away or get locked away…..your choice…. it if they knock, I talk.

Identifying Religious Brainwashing: Loading the Language (Part 6 of 8)

WomanWalkinInFaith:

Inspiring #truth

Originally posted on Liberty for Captives:

This is the sixth in an eight-part series on how to identify brainwashing in a destructive group or cult. It is based off of Dr. Robert Jay Lifton’s “Eight-Point Model of Thought Reform” and borrows from several other authorities on the topic of religious mind-control.*

1.) Part One: Milieu Control
2.) Part Two: Mystical Manipulation
3.) Part Three: The Demand for Purity
4.) Part Four: The Cult of Confession
5.) Part Five: The “Sacred Science”
6.) Part Six: Loading the Language
7.) Part Seven: Doctrine Over Person
8.) Part Eight: The Dispensing of Existence

*Stephen Martin’s book, The Heresy of Mind Control, and Margaret Singer’s Cults in Our Midst.

For folks outside of cults it may seem unbelievable how cult members can submit to spiritual abuse. Can’t they see how manipulative and controlling the group leader is?

No, they can’t.

The reason they can’t see is because they…

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Eight Ways to Identify Religious Brainwashing: Mystical Manipulation (Part 2 of 8)

Originally posted on Liberty for Captives:

This is the second in an eight-part series on how to identify brainwashing in a destructive group or cult. It is based off of Dr. Robert Jay Lifton’s “Eight-Point Model of Thought Reform” and borrows from several other authorities on the topic of religious mind-control.* You can see the first post here.

1.) Part One: Milieu Control
2.) Part Two: Mystical Manipulation
3.) Part Three: The Demand for Purity
4.) Part Four: The Cult of Confession
5.) Part Five: The “Sacred Science”
6.) Part Six: Loading the Language
7.) Part Seven: Doctrine Over Person
8.) Part Eight: The Dispensing of Existence

*Stephen Martin’s book, The Heresy of Mind Control, and Margaret Singer’s Cults in Our Midst.

Part Two: Mystical Manipulation

In part one of this series, we learned that the first step to controlling another person’s mind is by controlling their environment–what Lifton calls “Milieu Control.”…

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Mind-Field: Eight Ways to Identify Religious Brainwashing (Part 1 of 8)

Originally posted on Liberty for Captives:

Aki Ray, a former child-soldier in Cambodia, is now one of the world’s foremost mine-clearing experts. He walks through the jungle looking for landmines and then defuses them one by one. He’s alive because he knows what to look for in the weeds.

Can you identify the subtle signs of mind control?

I couldn’t. That’s why I remained in a legalistic Bible-cult for over 25 years.

But now that I’m out of the jungle, I can better read the signs. The purpose of this series is to give you the same eight identifiers so that you never find yourself in the midst of a religious mind-field.

Can a group affirm the Bible and still be a cult?

Yes.

What makes some groups destructive is not their doctrine but rather their practice. Jesus said, “By their fruits you will know them,” (cf. Matthew 7:15-20), and destructive groups have…

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Friday the 13th of Feburajry 2015

4 5 6 leaf clovers from todayUsually I  consider this a very lucky day, Friday the 13th (must be the Irish side of me)…except in the month of February! Every major tragedy that has occurred in my life revolved around Feb. 13, 14 or 15th. Typically I hide out. This year I am breaking out. (Must be the native American side of me).
Bizarre things are once again occurring. One minute have cell, next I dont same with internet. Or better yet it is selectively letting me get things like only certain text. I recieved yesterday morning voicemails today and yesyerdays texts in the middle of the night. Last night I Could not get into my webinar. And my email acct disappearing and months later appearing for 1hour and they are the carrier email accts.
Why bring it up you may be asking….today I called the bank I moved to and have been banking with for a year after leaving the bank across the street. I had been banking with them thru moving thru 4 states for a few years….suddenly lost my disability checks in may 2013.
So please understand this played into my lack of confidence with my bank of today, to be told that my social security number is set as my brothers ssn on the acct and his middle name is not on the account and my last name was wrong ….nevermind that my brother IRS direct deposit was not there!
So to answer Chris (from Calvery Church in Carson City) whom installed my ramp last week and a question he asked last week. Did I think there is a conspiracy going on out here in my community. My answer last week was, “No, I think desperate folks, in desperate times, Do Desperate Things! Unlike you and I whom choose to bank with our Creator, God & the CHRISTED One, Jesus.”
So if these things are being done to keep me safe….then someone better speak up.

And if they are continuing to go on with malice then know you will not contend with me. I turned you over to God
I will #Pray and God of my own misunderstanding will make you pay….In ways I don’t even know how to ask for. My own son’s murder proved that to me.
SEE I WALK IN FAITH…. OF POWER OF RIGHT LIVING AND PRAYER
AND WHAT MY FATHER TELLS ME. What I know to be true….All things come full circle…all things and so far, I keep living to witness them.
I want to personally thank Bob and Laura at Independant Living and Henji too the team you sent out was awesome! I am so excited and for an update, not only did i get to take my wheel chair out to do morning prayers yesterday but I got to go volunteer and give back to my community….AND now this year I can grow a garden again. God Bless you for that! #JustSayin
AHo Mitakyue Oyasin