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Today is Wednesday, September 11, 2013.

Today this will be my Hope….

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This is the Story of how and when got my first #HopeOn ; known under another name back then, around Oct/Nov 1988. My 12 step Recovery sponsor was AT me. (Meaning she was fussing daily) about praying….. and I was too Rage~filled at the God that I thought I understood; or so I thought at the time; and this was a day like I had last week….and like last week; this God I refused to pray to due to my own anger at my lot as it seemed in life… I refused to pray…why bother? So I got up one morning with it pouring; like it can only pour on the coast of North Carolina……. buckets and buckets; then the cats and dogs come!

{Laughing out loud… this is my story I can laugh if I wanna!}

I had mid-terms or maybe it was finals and I was taking computer sciences at Carteret Community College. So to be honest; I woke up frantic to start with and still had four small kids to dress as a newly single mom. Then get them to school and daycare, before I got myself to College for this test. I was living in a house at the time I could not pay rent on (thank you Dana O., wherever you may be!) nor my electric bill. Like all the rest of my bills that had not been paid since I had not worked since April 1987, as a civilian mess manager for MCAS Cherry Point with a bit of rank for a woman in my late 20’s…another story another day…

Yet, somehow my electric was still on and someone else was loaning me the use of an old car that had been sitting in their driveway. But still, I woke up Angry at the Whole dang WORLD; if you want me to be really honest.

Dang it, it was pouring out!

I did not feel like even getting out of bed but by then I was so used to pushing myself till I dropped…it like many other things, it had just become habit. Kind of like my Anger!

So I get 4 small children in the car that is borrowed, leaving a house I am not and have not been able to pay rent for and drive two children to the lil elementary school Newport, NC and the two younger ones to daycare so that I can go take this exam.


Dang can it possibly pour ANY HARDER?!?!?

I drop off first two children then head into Morehead City, NC. About 1 mile from the daycare and about 2 miles from the college and…

DANG IT IT IS FLIPPIN” POURING OUT!

*BAM* *THUMP and *THUMP and yes *THUMP again. Crap. I JUST GOT A FLAT TIRE!

NOW if you think I was not already pissed…..and it is POURIN’ N POURIN’ and I got a flat and now, no way that I can make it in time for my test!  To top my morning off, I now have to get out in this down pour and change this flat because I can’t call no one…heck I could even afford a phone back then and there was no lifeline for help with phone. Borderline pre~dating cell phones in the box even; in 1988/89.  You know, back when there was telephone booths still! I wasn’t working and the dad wasn’t paying child support either!

I was mad, I tell you, at the whole dang world….

And now I am soaked and of course, my luck being; MY Luck….

I could not even get this tire off and it is still pouring! That’s about when Cliff rode by and did a U turn to came back and took me and 2 kids to the daycare. Then proceeded to drive both of us off to the college since we both had exams that day.

Was I grateful someone stopped and did that? I am ashamed to tell you No, I wasn’t ….(Cliff, Wa’do for your patience back then)

I run thru the rain only thinking of myself, I left poor Cliff locking up his truck in the rain…I ran to the college elevators to get upstairs to my exam room. I ran down the hall…and that was back when I could still run, barely.

I reach for the doorknob and Double Dog Dang It the dang handle is Locked. So It is now 9:05am and I was just locked out of an exam that I needed to take to continue getting my FASFA aid to educate myself to try to better Our lives.

Now I am beyond angry, I am in high gear and teetering RAGE!

I have no clue how I am even going to get home from the college….let alone pick 4 kids from two different locations and still had a flat tire to deal with on someone else’s car loaned to me but could I find a mustard seed of gratitude or even pray….NOPE; this bull had dug her heals in!

It’s now 10 am and here comes Cliff to the student lounge with two cups of coffee and offering me a ride and help with all of those issues. Proceeded to tell me I would have to wait till he took one more exam but then he was free to help. I was still too busy wasting my energy being angry, I couldn’t even thank him for offering. But I did wait and Cliff drove me home after we could not get the tire off, he pulled the car into the AutoZone parking lot and went in and spoke to the manager for me while I sat in his truck…

Just being Angry and Dang it is still pouring and I am still in soaked clothes and now it is around noonish.

We head back towards where I lived in Newport.

I never did thank Cliff that day. I ran from his truck to my door…and now I am so mad that I am crying; which of course only makes me burn deeper with that anger that is now being directed inward at myself.

And dang it it is still POURIN’!

I slam the steel security door with just a peep hole in it. I lean back against that door after I had slammed it shut!!!!! Very loud and angrily I proceeded to yell at the God, I thought I understood and at that time still believed had damned me to this thing call Life and I called Hell. I won’t go into what I said exactly cuz I am fairly certain if you are still reading this…you get the drift. But the jist of it was, “God if you are there, then I Need a little Sunshine; Someplace in my life…Anyplace.” Oh yes, I was even being sarcastic…ask some of my cousins, I used to have a knife for a tongue.

Hark! What is that noise I hear while I am leaning on the door yelling at God? Why it is the mailman! Can you imagine what I must have been thinking? Well, I can tell you it was close to something like, “YA, thanks God; more bad news and more bills I can’t pay!” And all my 12 step sponsor will say is, ‘until I am willing to at least try and pray…this is how things in my life will stay!’ Now THAT was an even more unpleasant thought! But I figured; in that moment; “May as well go get the mail while I am still soaking WET and before my hot bath.” I opened the door.

 

What I found shocked and amazed me so much that to this very day it brings me to a place of humility that I STILL cry, today. {actually, I need to go take a cry break; out in my garage, so the rainbow above is from last humpday, (Septemeber 11, 2013) which I got to witness last Wednesday, outside my garage door}  be right back to finish this story…..

 

 

 

At opening the door…. (September 14, 2013) with my Cry On still occurring in real time I found this :}   

 

 

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  I open the door….back that day in 1988, I thought to myself, “Well, let’s get the rest of the bad news over with. OH MY GOD; is this day ever gonna end? It is not even 1 pm yet! Dang!”

Wiping the tears from my eyes I slowly open my steel door….forget wiping tears! That is gonna be a no go now! Before my very eyes….there is a 3 to 4 foot wide pathway!

Oh My God, IT IS STILL POURING; BUT….

There is this small pathway from my front door to my mailbox across the street! You know; the door that I was just leaning on, on the other side of it; ranting at?  What I thought I believed about God and my relationship or non~relationship; to be more accurate. Ranting and stomping my feet like one of my small children would do, demanding sunshine someplace in my day; any place. To open that door and see (What I still will tell everyone; I know was, ‘Just for me’) that there was a Pathway of sunshine with NO rain from the door to the mailbox across the street. Ok; I am now paying attention; to what my 12 sponsor had said to me about the fact she really did not care how angry I was at God but I needed to pray in order to open those lines of communication again. That is, if I wanted Real Recovery in my life and to give my own children something different, I would have to be willing to DO something different, FIRST.

 

I balled, all the way from my door to my mailbox. Yet I still expected bad news and more bills which I could not pay unless I got a miracle. I had given up on those. I didn’t believe in them anymore…those were for other people, not me! I walked all the way back to the house; shut the door and for the first time in six to eight months; I opened my heavy drapes in my living room to look out upon the FLIPPIN’ Pouring rain!

Mainly, to see if that path really was just for me…..

 

I opened the drapes….I watch my pathway slowly disappear as it starts raining where I  had just walked. Where miraculously, it was dry and sunny just moments before. My pea brain just could not absorb all this. I was overwhelmed now and my mind is going a 1,000 miles an hour. Finally, I see my very first rainbow just past where I had so very recently walked in a path of sunshine THAT to this day I will swear Creator sent just for me. Oh yeah, I got a handful of mail but now I think I can at least open it and do my dread list (another story, another day).

Once my rainbow disappeared, I start opening my mail, when I noticed they are from a few states ago; from even, a few years back by looking at the envelopes. Except for a Publishers Clearing House envelope, junk mail for the round file; as it is lovingly called in the military world.

Now I am getting worried again…ok, breathe, and breathe, while trying to talk myself into opening these envelopes. What I found was all except for one envelope, was a check! All security deposit checks on an old utility bills being returned; finally. Not always easy to locate a military family that moves on demand. I am so shocked to see that collectively these returned deposits will pay my 8 month past due electric bill, and at least the water & sewer and trash too; while leaving me enough to have 20 bucks….

{back when 20 bucks filled up even gas guzzlers….laughing…told ya, my story…I can laugh if I wanna!}

To put in the gas tank when I would go back later that day to pick up my kids. I would have it to offer to Cliff, for all the gas he had used to help my ungrateful, angry butt out; that day. He was returning at 3 pm to pick me up, to go to pick up all the kids. He had said that maybe, we would see about the car at that time, if it had stopped raining by then. Now, I am in just total amazement and thinking maybe, JUST MAYBE there is something to this prayer thing. Maybe, I just didn’t fit; in the places I had looked. Just a thought.

 

Oh yes, so I bet you’re wondering how any of this ties into Publisher’s Clearing House and the Prize Patrol…the last piece of mail I had received that day was a Publisher’s Clearing House entry in the mailbox too. By this point of my day it is 1:30pm or so and I decide right then if I can find one stamp in this house….

I do not dare after receiving a pathway of sunshine, almost on demand. Then exactly how much money I needed plus 20 bucks to cover 8 months living expenses?!? To NOT at least be humble enough to try and do the right thing when Cliff gets back and offer it to him for his trouble. Not to mention his patience of listening to my rantings thru the day and trying to be the positive one in my day that day.

I am searching drawers all over… the loaned to me… house filled with ‘given to me’ furniture; thinking about what Cliff told me, “that I could change how I thought and how I feel about anything in my life” and thus change my perceptions.

Still searching but now in a different room and still thinking that maybe; I could try this prayer thing…

My friend and sponsor said I just had to pick something or someone I felt was a power Greater than myself; even if that was a doorknob or a tree. It did not matter to her, it only had to matter to me. I had spewed many times to her about my anger at the God I thought I understood; she told me I could fire that God and hire one I felt I could work with; one I found to be loving. One I felt would love me just as I was, warts and all! Rolling all these thoughts around my pea brain and searching… Bingo finally found one stamp.

I did my first mail in entry under the name I was living by then, Veronica McGuire to PCH.

Today, I can tell you it took me on a Search that brought me back to my Irish and Cherokee roots….I practice old native ways today, by choice; and have Creator, God of my own misunderstanding as only I say…because I don’t have to figure it out… my part is the footwork and that was the day that I started my on and off again relationship with #PCH  With Publisher’s Clearing House to get started you got to be willing to enter…

Now I want you to know….I have continued with many of the same struggles as then; only now my children are grown. Heck even some of my grandchildren have children. But I choose my perspective each morning when I wake up and I make one decision only:

Am I going to live and walk in my faith or live and walk in my fears…..What am i going to to do good today for someone else?

So far, what I can report is it truly is a miracle that I am able to be here to even write this story today. Feel blessed to share it with y’all, anyday.

There is MY story of when I got my 1st rainbow and my first #HopeOn . How it all ties into Prize Patrol because what I learned was how to live in the faith, each day that I wake up. This was my GiveBack to Publishers Clearing House and the Prize Patrol, and if they knock on my door…. I have a Vision.

Today, I have something money can’t buy and know how to ‘live with abandon’ do my part of the footwork and leave the result to the right dept….

Today, it is with the Creator, God of my own misunderstanding…

That way; the ends always come out so much sweeter…..somehow.

Can’t explain it and no longer even ask Why…

I do my part the footwork…so have I left anyone with a Hope On ? Today I go by my legal native name and that too is another story another day….just sayin’ Ah-ho Mitaukye Oyasin’

Difference Today is I want money… alot of it no less. I want to help people, to truly make a difference in their life. Today I want to start a non profit and a soup kitchen. A nonprofit so that I may help others already established in helping others…. like Wellbriety to train some facilitators so people can find a lasting recovery for drug and alcohol issues with trained facilitators… maybe a women’s shelter, which sadly often involves drugs or alcohol even if it doesn’t seem to be the immediate problem, the homeless and our veterans…. Which explains in itself why I want to open a soup kitchen.

I have a vision of a soup kitchen, where if you can leave a donation…  Great !…but if you can’t, no questions will be asked. If you bring the whole family for dinner awesome. Or if your a worker stopping by for lunch to cut down on groceries at home or to ensure your children have enough to eat. No problem and no funny looks. And in this soup kitchen… a wall of resources, dedicated to pamphlets and flyers of information on what help is available in the area and when. What churches and where they are. Where you can get the help you need. Maybe even short term employment listings. and a van that will take the wheelchair bound people of my community to Reno to doctor appointments… it is a serious issues here. We don’t have the doctors we need locally for the truly ill and we have no way to get them to where the doctors that can treat them are. Quite sad. Except helicopter, for medivac.

And let’s face it…when you feed others they are more apt to seek help right there… This is my vision as 2015 draws to an end. Having walked in many of those shoes already myself… I want to help others overcome these obstacles in life and put Unity back in my Community.

Now if Publisher’s Clearing House would come knock on my door…..

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Elder’s Meditation of the Day February 24

ELDERS DAILY MEDITATIONS

“But each of us must find out for himself or herself what their gift is, so that they can use it in their life.”
–Jimmy Jackson, OJIBWAY

The old people say, everyone has a song to sing. This song is the reason we are on this earth. When we are doing what we came on this earth to do, we know true happiness. How will we know our song? Pray. Ask the Great Mystery, “What is it you want me to do during my stay on earth?” Ask. He will tell you. He will even help you develop yourself to accomplish His mission.

Great Spirit, help me find my song and let me sing it.

SOMETHING EXTRA TO THINK ABOUT

Msit Nókmaq/All My Relations,
Listen to the birds and their music. No two sing the same song because they all are different. There may be some sounds that seem alike but if you listen carefully you will find them to be different. We humans are the same way. Each of us has our own song and each of us has our own walk in life.
Arthur Medicine Eagle-Sonier, MEGAMAW

Gitsch Manito-Creator, Wásóq-Spiritworld, Thank you for making all things different instead of the same.Thank you for giving me direction to walk in the same way with some of my relatives yet keeping us all apart to remain individually different.
Welálin-ThankYou, Msit Nókmaq, Chi-Miigwetch, Mitauke Oyasin

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Elder’s Meditation of the Day February 23

“We’ve got to learn what’s going on today in the world, and we’ve got to get an education so we can survive.” –Jimmy Jackson, OJIBWA

Indian people have the ability to adapt. In these modern times, we Native people must walk two roads. We must get educated so our people don’t lose. We need lawyers, doctors, nurses, foresters, scientists, educators, carpenters, welders. These skills are needed to help the people. While we are learning we need to remember to keep our culture, learn our dances, sing our songs, learn to speak our own language and maintain our culture for future generations.

Great Spirit, let my education never lack the meaning and value of Indian spirituality.

SOMETHING EXTRA TO THINK ABOUT

Msit Nókmaq~All My Relations,
We must teach our children the importance of being educated. Without it there is no real hope of accomplishment. Educating our children in the old ways is wonderful and respectful but we also need to educate them in the modern worlds ways to be capable of handling many various situations and doing it with strength of endurance, finesse and tact.
~ Arthur Medicine Eagle Sonier, MEGAMAW

Gitsch Manito-Creator, Wásóq-Spiritworld, Please show us the direction to teach our children the importance of being educated in this world today. Please help us to show it does not mean we must give up our Spiritual walk and ancestral ways.
Welálin-ThankYou, Msit Nókmaq, Chi-Miigwetch, Mitauke Oyasin

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Elder’s Meditation of the Day February 16

ELDERS DAILY MEDITATIONS

“Because woman lives so close to our first mother, the Earth, she emanates the strength and harmonious nature of all things.”
–Larry P. Aitken, CHIPPEWA

At an Elders gathering, held in July 1991, we were told the Indian woman would play an instrumental part in leading the healing of Indian nations. The old people said we were to look up to her in a sacred manner. They said the Earth Mother would give the woman special gifts of love. The woman and the Earth Mother are connected in a special way. Women should pay attention to the lessons coming from the earth. Men should treat the women with respect, dignity and honor.

Grandfather, Grandmother, give the Indian woman Your strength to heal our earth.

SOMETHING EXTRA TO THINK ABOUT

Msit Nókmaq/All My Relations,
Our women are special in many ways, they are like the earth as they give birth to the new born just like the fertilized seeds of the plants and animals of the earth. Our relationship is closer than you may think. It is our responsibility to take care of our place of dwelling and stop the pollution of our air, water and land. Many women stand up and protest the polluting actions now days and speak to the Governments about what harm it is doing to where we all live. Almost every food bought in stores now days are chemically enhanced and truthfully not very good for you to eat.
~Arthur Medicine Eagle-Sonier MEGAMAW

Gitsch Manito-Creator, Wásóq-Spiritworld, Thank you for Momma Bears please give them the strength to endure.
Welálin-ThankYou, Msit Nókmaq, Chi-Miigwetch, Mitauke Oyasin

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February 19th, 12 years of MUCH sorrow, time for action.

To be perfectly Honest…this is the hardest time of the year for me. Actually, it starts with Thanksgiving and meanders through out the holiday season. This tends to be one holiday that so many are happiest, yet it has been a great time of sorrow for me. This very week actually, more tragedies have occurred between Feb. 13 to Feb 19; consistently thru the years than any other block of time in my life. So I wish to discuss that and one other thing, the difference between sharing a gift and fortune telling.

Many have the misunderstanding they have and believe I am a fortune teller. Trust me I am NOT a fortune teller, in any sense of the term. By my understanding, paying for the service such as some big names would have you to do, it is what makes it fortune telling. My pet peeve is; Some Famous messengers, whom I respect and admire and truly believe are gifted; do by definition fall into the fortune telling category; with the whole ‘I will help you for a $1 a minute or $4.99 a minute or $750.oo for 15 minutes on a phone call with me) Pick a version of the Bible, Torah, or any other spiritual text and read what they define as a fortune teller. A Gift is a Gift, a gift from our Creator should Not be used for personal gain. PERIOD> all the texts say IF YOU DO THIS THEN it is fortune telling. I don’t tell fortunes…I give messages; exactly as I get the message, to the person the message is for. There have been many times that I had no idea, what the message I was being asked to hand to a stranger; even meant. But they did. Guess that is ALL that really counts. I have walked a humble path, a path of taking the higher ground whenever I am able and honestly sometimes I do not want to. I remind folks that I am not going for sainthood. I am merely a praying woman that walks in her faith in every area of her life. I make lots of mistakes and will own everyone of them. Took each one to make me the woman that I choose to be today. In native ways, giving tobacco is a sign of respect and the proper way of asking an Elder to assist you somehow, where it be thru prayers, thru sweat lodge, thru ways of medicine. Anything else is a gift offering, that is gifted if the person being helped feels you helped them, and it is based on what they believe they can afford, so do not be offended if it is just a smile today, or a couple of chickens for your coupe. It is what is what the receiving party feels is fair. Those that have do and those that don’t also don’t worry about it since we live in circles and know ALL things come full circle.

This makes it very difficult to go work for anyone else even online since my ethics do not fit into their business model. But what I know to be the truth, it fits into God our Creator’s model. So please stop recruiting me for fortune telling. I pass on the messages I get when I get them… because I walk in my faith….even when I can not see the stair case.

In the past, this week I usually hide out in life. I have had more surgeries, doctors apt dates for valentines day, it is too funny. But I have had other tragedies, too such as the one below:

This was the first step of how I learned of my son. To me, I never thought it was my son. Not then.
This was the first step of how I learned of my son. To me, I never thought it was my son. Not then.

I knew the day my son was born I would only have him 21 years. In a Hospital chapel at Ft Belvoir, I ‘heard’ my son would live not to worry. But I would have him 21 years but only 21 years; on that day in 1981 it was a true blessing to my ears. But 19 years later when his best friend Ryan past away the week of his birthday in Jan., I started spending time with his mom. Months past and finally she asked why I was still there helping her, even her family did not bother anymore yet like clockwork I was there trying to help her. Why? So 19 years I carried the knowing of my only son’s death and when it would be to myself. The heaviest burden I have carried by far, to date. Finally, I confided in this new found friend whom had just been an acquaintance till then. It would be years later she confessed to me that after I told what I ‘knew’ of my own son’s death that she daily started praying that for once I would be wrong. Ironically her son passed away during the week of my son’s birthday and my son passed away during what would have been her son’s birthday week. So I always think of him as well and one other young man now who just turned 33.

So please know if I past on a message to you, there was no expectation ….all gift offerings are accepted, but they do not buy any kind of endorsements with me. I do the right thing whenever I can…..merely because it is the Right thing to do…and I can.

I work for Creator, God of my own misunderstanding, trying to #BeTheChange I want to see in our communities. I pray and pass on messages, the way I get them…even when it means I will get a funny look or rude comment. Not my part of the equation…mine is just be willing to be the hollow bone and deliver the message as given. AND YES even when I do NOT want to.

Elder’s Meditation of the Day February 13

ELDERS DAILY MEDITATIONS

“I wanted to feel, smell, hear and see, but not see with my eyes and my mind only. I wanted to see with CANTE ISTA-the eye of the heart.”
–Lame Deer, LAKOTA

Why is it what some people seem to have peace of mind every day? How do some people remain so darn positive? How do you stay positive if you work or live in a negative environment? How is it that two people can observe the same difficult situation, but one person is upset about it, and other isn’t? Two people experiencing the same situation react entirely different. If each morning we ask the Creator to allow us to see with His understanding and with His love, we will open a new way of “seeing”. This eye of the heart is a free gift given to us if we ask for it in prayer each day.

Grandfather, allow me to see the world and all things You have made through “the eye of my heart.”

SOMETHING EXTRA TO THINK ABOUT

Msit Nókmaq/All My Relations,
I was always taught to make sure I did things from the heart. I turned my back and closed the eye for quite a few years and did not do as suggested by my Elders. What we tend to forget is that the heart is the eye of Creator and we should seek it as often as we can.
~ Arthur Medicine Eagle-Sonier MEGAMAW

Gitsch Manito-Creator, Wásóq-Spiritworld,
Please help me to keep my heart open and seek your ways daily through prayers and my path.
Welálin-ThankYou, Msit Nókmaq, Chi-Miigwetch, Mitauke Oyasin

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Elder’s Meditation of the Day February 1

“You can’t just sit down and talk about the truth. It doesn’t work that way. You have to live it and be part of it and you might get to know it.” –Rolling Thunder, CHEROKEE …
We all read books that have much information in them. Often we pick up on little sayings that we remember. Inside of us is the little owl, the owl of knowing. It talks to us- guiding us and nurturing us. Often when we get information, it’s hard to live by, but it’s easy to talk about. It’s living the Red Road that counts-Walk the Talk. If we really want freedom in our lives, if we really want to be happy, if we really want to have peace of mind, it’s the truth we must seek.
My Creator, help me in my search for the truth today.
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SOMETHING EXTRA TO THINK ABOUT
Msit Nókmaq/All My Relations,
When we read something it is always good to not believe it all until we investigate it. Often things are written as opinions of others and not completely of truth. We must seek that truth so we do not end up treating another person nasty because of gossip or written mis-information. In order to have freedom and peace of mind one must allow others the right to live their lives accordingly instead of people trying to control them. Controlling comes in a few disguises. PRIDE; excessive belief in one’s own abilities, that interferes with the individual’s recognition of the grace of Creator. Pride is also known as Vanity. ENVY; the desire for others’ traits, status, abilities, or situation. GLUTTONY; an inordinate desire to consume more than that which one requires. LUST; an inordinate craving for the pleasures of the body. ANGER; manifested in the individual who spurns love and opts instead for fury. It is also known as Wrath. GREED; the desire for material wealth or gain, ignoring the realm of the spiritual. It is also called Avarice or Covetousness. SLOTH; the avoidance of physical or spiritual work.
Arthur Medicine Eagle-Sonier MEGAMAW
Gitsch Manito-Creator, Wásóq-Spiritworld, Please help me to walk in your direction without a lot of confusion. I humbly ask for direction so my walk can help others instead of self. Welálin-ThankYou, Msit Nókmaq, Chi-Miigwetch, Mitauke Oyasin
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Elder’s Meditation of the Day January 29

“We grieve more because we have been disconnected from our earth, our first Mother, our spiritual Mother.” –Larry P. Aitken, CHIPPEWA …
Where does all life come from? The Earth. Where does everything return to? The Earth. Where do values come them? The Earth. Many people are lost because they don’t know the importance of connection to the Earth. They connect to money, to relationships, to success, to goals. When we are disconnected from the Earth, we have feelings of being sad or lost. When we are connected to the Earth, we feel warm and secure.
Great Spirit, help me to stay connected to the Mother Earth.
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SOMETHING EXTRA TO THINK ABOUT
Msit Nókmaq/All My Relations, When we allow material things to be more important than Spiritual things we lose a lot of very important ways in life. Many fear dying and are so concerned about what would they do if someone stole all their possessions. Did we not come into this world naked? Can we take all our riches with us when we pass? Is success what really makes a man or woman or is it something more from the heart? Can we actually buy real love? The twisted ways of thinking come from greedy people. A person who works hard should be paid more than one who works less, But that is not the case here.It is all backwards. This is what man has brought forth because of the attitude that being a certain religion or family tree entitles them to it. What they really forget is that “We all are from the same family”.
Gitsch Manito-Creator, Wásóq-Spiritworld, Thank you for helping me to see these important things to help my walk in this world. Every time you show me something you open my eyes a bit more to see what I have been blind to.   Welálin-Thank You, Msit Nókmaq, Chi-Miigwetch, Mitauke Oyasin
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Elder’s Meditation of the Day January 28

“We call it the `sacred’ red road because it is the road that will lead us to living the good life, an honest and healthy life.” –Larry P. Aitken, CHIPPEWA …
The Red Road is the path we walk on when we want a direct relationship with the Great Spirit. This requires sacrifice. This requires us to have our beliefs tested. To walk this path is really an honor. The returns for doing so are exciting, not only for ourselves but for the effect that will be felt for three generations. This means your children will see the benefits as well as your grandchildren. Do I want to walk this sacred road?
Great Spirit, guide myself and my family on the Red Road.
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SOMETHING EXTRA TO THINK ABOUT
Msit Nókmaq/All My Relations, The Beatles once composed a song with the words “A Long winding road” Maybe we need to look at our road daily, It can be hilly terrain, flat lands of Kansas, Mountainous but always winding ever on. We walk it very proud at times and then at other times we may feel discouraged and willing to give up the walk. We choose our walk by what we do daily. If we pray every day we are doing well if we fail to give Creator thanks we usually do not have a very good day. What kind of day do you want?
  Arthur Medicine Eagle Sonier  MEGAMAW.
Gitsch Manito-Creator,Wásóq-Spiritworld, Please help me to continue to walk good. I know the times I feel like giving up you give me a push to get me going again.Thank you for the Love you give me. Welálin-ThankYou, MsitNókmaq, Chi-Miigwetch, Mitauke Oyasin
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Elder’s Meditation of the Day January 27

There is no death. Only a change of worlds.” –Chief Seattle, SUQWAMISH AND DUWAMISH …
The Elders tell us of the other dimension, the Spirit World. Our spirit in our bodies does not die, it only looks that way to our eyes and our brains.Some of our ceremonies allow us to see into the Spirit World. Death is only part of a process of life. It shows the transition into the Spirit World.The Elders tell us this is a joyful life journey.
My Creator, help me to understand both the seen world and the unseen world.Let me not be afraid of the world You live in.
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SOMETHING EXTRA TO THINK ABOUT Msit Nókmaq/All My Relations, When we go into the Sacred Sweat lodge we can travel into a different world than what we are used to. To sit and watch the steam hurl out and the Ancestral stones steam after the door has been opened gives us an idea of new birth and how it all begins over and over. One can envision the beginning of this earth with the steamy air and silence. When I open the door and go out I feel like I am entering a different dimension than the one I was in before I did the sweat This is what the Elders refer to as our rebirth from the sweat lodge because we come out of the womb of Mother Earth and the center of all beings living and non living. This is a preparation for us when we pass from here.
  Arthur Medicine Eagle Sonier  MEGAMAW.
Gitsch Manito-Creator,Wásóq-Spiritworld, Thank you for helping me to see life as a stepping stone to a better place of existence. Thank you for helping me to realize that all the people I know and love who passed on are out there on a vacation and one day we can meet again. Our Spirit beings have so much to do here but so little time to do it in. The stages of growth are absolutely amazing at times. Thank you for allowing me this Spiritual honor. Welálin-ThankYou, MsitNókmaq, Chi-Miigwetch, Mitauke Oyasin
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