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Today is Wednesday, September 11, 2013.

Today this will be my Hope….

rainbow for me this week


This is the Story of how and when got my first #HopeOn ; known under another name back then, around Oct/Nov 1988. My 12 step Recovery sponsor was AT me. (Meaning she was fussing daily) about praying….. and I was too Rage~filled at the God that I thought I understood; or so I thought at the time; and this was a day like I had last week….and like last week; this God I refused to pray to due to my own anger at my lot as it seemed in life… I refused to pray…why bother? So I got up one morning with it pouring; like it can only pour on the coast of North Carolina……. buckets and buckets; then the cats and dogs come!

{Laughing out loud… this is my story I can laugh if I wanna!}

I had mid-terms or maybe it was finals and I was taking computer sciences at Carteret Community College. So to be honest; I woke up frantic to start with and still had four small kids to dress as a newly single mom. Then get them to school and daycare, before I got myself to College for this test. I was living in a house at the time I could not pay rent on (thank you Dana O., wherever you may be!) nor my electric bill. Like all the rest of my bills that had not been paid since I had not worked since April 1987, as a civilian mess manager for MCAS Cherry Point with a bit of rank for a woman in my late 20’s…another story another day…

Yet, somehow my electric was still on and someone else was loaning me the use of an old car that had been sitting in their driveway. But still, I woke up Angry at the Whole dang WORLD; if you want me to be really honest.

Dang it, it was pouring out!

I did not feel like even getting out of bed but by then I was so used to pushing myself till I dropped…it like many other things, it had just become habit. Kind of like my Anger!

So I get 4 small children in the car that is borrowed, leaving a house I am not and have not been able to pay rent for and drive two children to the lil elementary school Newport, NC and the two younger ones to daycare so that I can go take this exam.

Dang can it possibly pour ANY HARDER?!?!?

I drop off first two children then head into Morehead City, NC. About 1 mile from the daycare and about 2 miles from the college and…


*BAM* *THUMP and *THUMP and yes *THUMP again. Crap. I JUST GOT A FLAT TIRE!

NOW if you think I was not already pissed…..and it is POURIN’ N POURIN’ and I got a flat and now, no way that I can make it in time for my test!  To top my morning off, I now have to get out in this down pour and change this flat because I can’t call no one…heck I could even afford a phone back then and there was no lifeline for help with phone. Borderline pre~dating cell phones in the box even; in 1988/89.  You know, back when there was telephone booths still! I wasn’t working and the dad wasn’t paying child support either!

I was mad, I tell you, at the whole dang world….

And now I am soaked and of course, my luck being; MY Luck….

I could not even get this tire off and it is still pouring! That’s about when Cliff rode by and did a U turn to came back and took me and 2 kids to the daycare. Then proceeded to drive both of us off to the college since we both had exams that day.

Was I grateful someone stopped and did that? I am ashamed to tell you No, I wasn’t ….(Cliff, Wa’do for your patience back then)

I run thru the rain only thinking of myself, I left poor Cliff locking up his truck in the rain…I ran to the college elevators to get upstairs to my exam room. I ran down the hall…and that was back when I could still run, barely.

I reach for the doorknob and Double Dog Dang It the dang handle is Locked. So It is now 9:05am and I was just locked out of an exam that I needed to take to continue getting my FASFA aid to educate myself to try to better Our lives.

Now I am beyond angry, I am in high gear and teetering RAGE!

I have no clue how I am even going to get home from the college….let alone pick 4 kids from two different locations and still had a flat tire to deal with on someone else’s car loaned to me but could I find a mustard seed of gratitude or even pray….NOPE; this bull had dug her heals in!

It’s now 10 am and here comes Cliff to the student lounge with two cups of coffee and offering me a ride and help with all of those issues. Proceeded to tell me I would have to wait till he took one more exam but then he was free to help. I was still too busy wasting my energy being angry, I couldn’t even thank him for offering. But I did wait and Cliff drove me home after we could not get the tire off, he pulled the car into the AutoZone parking lot and went in and spoke to the manager for me while I sat in his truck…

Just being Angry and Dang it is still pouring and I am still in soaked clothes and now it is around noonish.

We head back towards where I lived in Newport.

I never did thank Cliff that day. I ran from his truck to my door…and now I am so mad that I am crying; which of course only makes me burn deeper with that anger that is now being directed inward at myself.

And dang it it is still POURIN’!

I slam the steel security door with just a peep hole in it. I lean back against that door after I had slammed it shut!!!!! Very loud and angrily I proceeded to yell at the God, I thought I understood and at that time still believed had damned me to this thing call Life and I called Hell. I won’t go into what I said exactly cuz I am fairly certain if you are still reading this…you get the drift. But the jist of it was, “God if you are there, then I Need a little Sunshine; Someplace in my life…Anyplace.” Oh yes, I was even being sarcastic…ask some of my cousins, I used to have a knife for a tongue.

Hark! What is that noise I hear while I am leaning on the door yelling at God? Why it is the mailman! Can you imagine what I must have been thinking? Well, I can tell you it was close to something like, “YA, thanks God; more bad news and more bills I can’t pay!” And all my 12 step sponsor will say is, ‘until I am willing to at least try and pray…this is how things in my life will stay!’ Now THAT was an even more unpleasant thought! But I figured; in that moment; “May as well go get the mail while I am still soaking WET and before my hot bath.” I opened the door.


What I found shocked and amazed me so much that to this very day it brings me to a place of humility that I STILL cry, today. {actually, I need to go take a cry break; out in my garage, so the rainbow above is from last humpday, (Septemeber 11, 2013) which I got to witness last Wednesday, outside my garage door}  be right back to finish this story…..




At opening the door…. (September 14, 2013) with my Cry On still occurring in real time I found this :}   













  I open the door….back that day in 1988, I thought to myself, “Well, let’s get the rest of the bad news over with. OH MY GOD; is this day ever gonna end? It is not even 1 pm yet! Dang!”

Wiping the tears from my eyes I slowly open my steel door….forget wiping tears! That is gonna be a no go now! Before my very eyes….there is a 3 to 4 foot wide pathway!


There is this small pathway from my front door to my mailbox across the street! You know; the door that I was just leaning on, on the other side of it; ranting at?  What I thought I believed about God and my relationship or non~relationship; to be more accurate. Ranting and stomping my feet like one of my small children would do, demanding sunshine someplace in my day; any place. To open that door and see (What I still will tell everyone; I know was, ‘Just for me’) that there was a Pathway of sunshine with NO rain from the door to the mailbox across the street. Ok; I am now paying attention; to what my 12 sponsor had said to me about the fact she really did not care how angry I was at God but I needed to pray in order to open those lines of communication again. That is, if I wanted Real Recovery in my life and to give my own children something different, I would have to be willing to DO something different, FIRST.


I balled, all the way from my door to my mailbox. Yet I still expected bad news and more bills which I could not pay unless I got a miracle. I had given up on those. I didn’t believe in them anymore…those were for other people, not me! I walked all the way back to the house; shut the door and for the first time in six to eight months; I opened my heavy drapes in my living room to look out upon the FLIPPIN’ Pouring rain!

Mainly, to see if that path really was just for me…..


I opened the drapes….I watch my pathway slowly disappear as it starts raining where I  had just walked. Where miraculously, it was dry and sunny just moments before. My pea brain just could not absorb all this. I was overwhelmed now and my mind is going a 1,000 miles an hour. Finally, I see my very first rainbow just past where I had so very recently walked in a path of sunshine THAT to this day I will swear Creator sent just for me. Oh yeah, I got a handful of mail but now I think I can at least open it and do my dread list (another story, another day).

Once my rainbow disappeared, I start opening my mail, when I noticed they are from a few states ago; from even, a few years back by looking at the envelopes. Except for a Publishers Clearing House envelope, junk mail for the round file; as it is lovingly called in the military world.

Now I am getting worried again…ok, breathe, and breathe, while trying to talk myself into opening these envelopes. What I found was all except for one envelope, was a check! All security deposit checks on an old utility bills being returned; finally. Not always easy to locate a military family that moves on demand. I am so shocked to see that collectively these returned deposits will pay my 8 month past due electric bill, and at least the water & sewer and trash too; while leaving me enough to have 20 bucks….

{back when 20 bucks filled up even gas guzzlers….laughing…told ya, my story…I can laugh if I wanna!}

To put in the gas tank when I would go back later that day to pick up my kids. I would have it to offer to Cliff, for all the gas he had used to help my ungrateful, angry butt out; that day. He was returning at 3 pm to pick me up, to go to pick up all the kids. He had said that maybe, we would see about the car at that time, if it had stopped raining by then. Now, I am in just total amazement and thinking maybe, JUST MAYBE there is something to this prayer thing. Maybe, I just didn’t fit; in the places I had looked. Just a thought.


Oh yes, so I bet you’re wondering how any of this ties into Publisher’s Clearing House and the Prize Patrol…the last piece of mail I had received that day was a Publisher’s Clearing House entry in the mailbox too. By this point of my day it is 1:30pm or so and I decide right then if I can find one stamp in this house….

I do not dare after receiving a pathway of sunshine, almost on demand. Then exactly how much money I needed plus 20 bucks to cover 8 months living expenses?!? To NOT at least be humble enough to try and do the right thing when Cliff gets back and offer it to him for his trouble. Not to mention his patience of listening to my rantings thru the day and trying to be the positive one in my day that day.

I am searching drawers all over… the loaned to me… house filled with ‘given to me’ furniture; thinking about what Cliff told me, “that I could change how I thought and how I feel about anything in my life” and thus change my perceptions.

Still searching but now in a different room and still thinking that maybe; I could try this prayer thing…

My friend and sponsor said I just had to pick something or someone I felt was a power Greater than myself; even if that was a doorknob or a tree. It did not matter to her, it only had to matter to me. I had spewed many times to her about my anger at the God I thought I understood; she told me I could fire that God and hire one I felt I could work with; one I found to be loving. One I felt would love me just as I was, warts and all! Rolling all these thoughts around my pea brain and searching… Bingo finally found one stamp.

I did my first mail in entry under the name I was living by then, Veronica McGuire to PCH.

Today, I can tell you it took me on a Search that brought me back to my Irish and Cherokee roots….I practice old native ways today, by choice; and have Creator, God of my own misunderstanding as only I say…because I don’t have to figure it out… my part is the footwork and that was the day that I started my on and off again relationship with #PCH  With Publisher’s Clearing House to get started you got to be willing to enter…

Now I want you to know….I have continued with many of the same struggles as then; only now my children are grown. Heck even some of my grandchildren have children. But I choose my perspective each morning when I wake up and I make one decision only:

Am I going to live and walk in my faith or live and walk in my fears…..What am i going to to do good today for someone else?

So far, what I can report is it truly is a miracle that I am able to be here to even write this story today. Feel blessed to share it with y’all, anyday.

There is MY story of when I got my 1st rainbow and my first #HopeOn . How it all ties into Prize Patrol because what I learned was how to live in the faith, each day that I wake up. This was my GiveBack to Publishers Clearing House and the Prize Patrol, and if they knock on my door…. I have a Vision.

Today, I have something money can’t buy and know how to ‘live with abandon’ do my part of the footwork and leave the result to the right dept….

Today, it is with the Creator, God of my own misunderstanding…

That way; the ends always come out so much sweeter…..somehow.

Can’t explain it and no longer even ask Why…

I do my part the footwork…so have I left anyone with a Hope On ? Today I go by my legal native name and that too is another story another day….just sayin’ Ah-ho Mitaukye Oyasin’

Difference Today is I want money… alot of it no less. I want to help people, to truly make a difference in their life. Today I want to start a non profit and a soup kitchen. A nonprofit so that I may help others already established in helping others…. like Wellbriety to train some facilitators so people can find a lasting recovery for drug and alcohol issues with trained facilitators… maybe a women’s shelter, which sadly often involves drugs or alcohol even if it doesn’t seem to be the immediate problem, the homeless and our veterans…. Which explains in itself why I want to open a soup kitchen.

I have a vision of a soup kitchen, where if you can leave a donation…  Great !…but if you can’t, no questions will be asked. If you bring the whole family for dinner awesome. Or if your a worker stopping by for lunch to cut down on groceries at home or to ensure your children have enough to eat. No problem and no funny looks. And in this soup kitchen… a wall of resources, dedicated to pamphlets and flyers of information on what help is available in the area and when. What churches and where they are. Where you can get the help you need. Maybe even short term employment listings. and a van that will take the wheelchair bound people of my community to Reno to doctor appointments… it is a serious issues here. We don’t have the doctors we need locally for the truly ill and we have no way to get them to where the doctors that can treat them are. Quite sad. Except helicopter, for medivac.

And let’s face it…when you feed others they are more apt to seek help right there… This is my vision as 2015 draws to an end. Having walked in many of those shoes already myself… I want to help others overcome these obstacles in life and put Unity back in my Community.

Now if Publisher’s Clearing House would come knock on my door…..

By Woman Walkin In Faith                                                                                            


































































PRAYER REQUEST / Please take to the lodges world wide

Reno Residents of Native American Indian background…it has been requested that a blessing be given upon Eddie Lorton for Mayor office and campaign. I call forth All Nations to bring this request to LODGE this week. I am willing to do the blessing IF the Lodges and Pipes world wide will back me up. I can vouch the man is part Cherokee and walks an honorable road with strong ethics ‘for the good of the all’, here in Reno, NV. I will wait for the usual way of responses….and see all y’all in this Sundays Lodges. Personally, I back this man and all he has already done for the peoples of Reno, Nv. He Felt strongly enough; he did these things on his own dime no less.



I ask this in a good way
Wado/ Ski Woman walkin in Faith, it is I, Zentagu’e Onana.
Tobacco will be put out on the healing tree at dusk today.

The other hurdle will be District 25 Assemblyman position, between these two offices I truly ‘See’ a Vision of a Rebirth for Reno….finally! Vote the unknown name, that is the only one to bother to get an out of state CANDIDATE VERIFICATION to run for Dist. 25 Assemblyman …Keep your eyes out for it posting! (Niklas H. Putnam in FB) …Please make no mistake This is MY VISION not either man endorsing the other. As far as I know they do not even know each other. Hopefully the VOTERS will change that. Those two rubbing elbows can do much good for Reno Residents, just sayin’

YOU just won’t listen, OMG!

First let me start with this morning and someone (probably the person that stole my last cell phone before I got a government cell) YOU won’t be able to sign into my FACEBOOK (nor any other accounts of mine online) without my government cell I am on a two step verification and have been for several months now. SO someone DOES KNOW WHO IS DOING THIS. I am currently waiting for UPS/FED EX to bring by the shipping materials to send MY new 13 month old laptop back to HP and then on I AM SURE to appropriate authorities. Fasten your seat belts boys and girls, because I know who is on my side and I faithfully walk the RED ROAD.

Secondly, I find it even more interesting that I asked Judge Chuck Weller a specific question concerning courting of our young people to AA or NA rooms and within minutes …. MY LAPTOP had no internet, yet my brothers tower did! So even though IT was THURSDAY NIGHT I called CHARTER, thankfully I get an out of state call center! WHO by the way has been KEEPING track of ALL the incident reports made for many months now. After reviewing my records (in my brothers name) THEY agreed since my laptop was hard wired in, they needed to do an Tap to find out who is doing this EXACTLY. That someone would come out to do that on FRIDAY, but no one showed. While on the phone with the employee, she managed to get me limited internet, which did not last long…but long enough for my to send a twitter or two. Where I hash-tagged the #FCC and said I believe that someone is RIGGING the election or trying to IN #RENO Nevada. As soon as that was posted @EDDIELORTON and reminded Reno residents to PAY ATTENTION and that @NiklasHPutnam is running for District 25 Asse4mblyman and is having a CANDIDATE VERIFICATION done and due to release PUBLICLY any day now, look for it and personally I believe EVERY CANDIDATE SHOULD HAVE TO PASS ONE TO EVEN BE ALLOWED TO RUN, PERIOD!……****BAM**** no internet. So when no one showed Friday, I really was NOT surprised. But then I called Charter back on Saturday to find out why no one showed up nor did we get a call, and told them how I knew this is an inside job…this is when I found out that within one hour of the thursday night call stating they were going to put a tap on the internet line….SOMEONE CALLED AND CANCELLED OUR SERVICE ALL TOGETHER!!!! Since my brother and I were sitting side by side watching rented DVDs, we did not make the cancellation call! So who did? Who has that authority? Reno residents WAKE UP AND DANG IT SPEAK UP! IF YOU VOTE THE SAME GARBAGE OR VOTE for the one THAT GARBAGE IS ENDORSING then this NIGHTMARE will NEVER END. WATCH THURSDAY NIGHT MAYORAL DEBATE> I have no clue if I will be able to since I have several times this year tried to do Whitehouse conferences and signed up in advance and FEMA conferences but funny how I am signed in and waiting for it to start and *****BAM**** no internet until it is over. Same thing happened when I tried to watch the first #RENOMAYORAL2014 Debate, no cable (also provided by Charter) until the debate was over! I watched news later that night and got clips of it in the news.
So I tried texting from my government cell to Eddie Lorton who is running for mayor and couldn’t so I tried calling from my brothers Phone and ironically IT WOULD NOT EVEN RING and I tired several times.
BY some miracle the number did show up on EDDIE LORTON’S phone as a missed call so he called me on Sunday. Since he had another appiontment I did not get to talk long and was trying to speed up the story so he could get about his business of his day. But what I did learn is that NIKLAS H. PUTNAM is not going to be on the ballot! WHAT THE HELL/ HE IS THE ONLY ONE THAT IS GETTING A CANDIDATE VERIFICATION…LIKE EDDIE LORTON ON HIS ON DIME, BOTH OF THESE MEN HAVE BEEN STEPPING UP FOR ‘WE THE PEOPLE’ ON THEIR OWN DIME AND THEIR OWN TIME. IF WE THE PEOPLE DO NOT BACK AT LEAST THESE TWO CANDIDATES ALL HELL WILL BREAK LOOSE IN RENO, NEVADA. IF YOU THINK IT IS CORRUPT NOW…HOKA HEY, YOU GOT NO IDEA what will come next! I do but everyone is too busy call me the nut. Too bad I have a record to via the government and you all still don’t know me. YET SUNDAY when I went out to the only place I go in public for some R&R you would be amazed how many Candidates came in that day to check me out. NONE with the BALLS TO SPEAK WITH me, though! BUT they all managed to speak about me and loud enough to make sure I could hear.
I am disabled, NOT STUPID! I have been graced with leaving a Military Job as a civilian, whom had a touch of rank (laughing) and ran the 19th hold and SNCO club and O Club overseer and even did the E club upon occasions. To realizing I could not work in that capacity in 1988. So I went back to school for computer sciences….before there even was a world wide web! it was just hush hush talk when I was in school. Heck Apple computers did not even have a mouse until my last year! I was one of the two the teacher would allow to use the mouse to reprogram with back then. Back in those days you did it all from a keyboard or it could be done. Todays layers ARE ALL BUILT UPON THE FOUNDATION OF WHAT I LEARNED back then. Hence how I could tell Charter this was an inside job when my laptop was hardwired in.
When the same guy did show up on saturday, He did a drive thru at 230pm and realised he was already to this house this month and he did not return till 430 and HE was PISSED when he came in the door. AGAIN TELLING buy an APPLE…no problem I surely can do that living on 741dollars per MONTH! On disability since MAY 1990 which started out as 497 per month and I had to raise kids on that no less, while towing the line for every county, state and federal agency and social security along the way. OMG YOU HAVE NO IDEA to the extent I have had to tow the line. But I have legally and honorably while I learned my heritage and the ways of it and the Lakota peoples (since my elders were Cherokee and Lakota) SO PLEASE SOMEONE TELL ME HOW I CAN BUY AN APPLE COMPUTER OF ANY KIND WITHOUT LYING CHEATING OR STEALING? NEVERMIND appropriate security for it and pay for a month service on it? ESPECIALLY SINCE I PAY my sibling 600 a month to live here and signed papers so he would not loose this house after everyone has been stealing from him. And he was illegally fired from a job after his Kidney Cancer surgery and this state would not even give him NV medicaid until the last month? So we still do not know if he is cancer free or not.

This morning (Tuesday) someone is trying to get into my FACEBOOK, too bad the phone you stole last year will not longer work HUH? not any of the fake emails you set up trying to get the verification that way. I (KNOW, meaning by means most can’t access because they do no walk with Creator, God of my own Misunderstanding as I do. AND trust me I wake close, I am as accurate as Sylvia Brown but I don’t do business in the same manner as the rest)

MY FINAL THOUGHTS ARE THIS: WATCH THE DEBATE THURSDAY NIGHT THIS WEEK ON KOLO or which ever channel you get it AND if the Intel I received is true and NIKLAS H. PUTNAM name is not on the ballot for District 25 Assemblyman….Reno Residents, THEN WRITE IT IN! YOU HAVE THE RIGHT TO WRITE IN ANY NAME AND IF IT GETS ENOUGH VOTES IT will be on the ELECTION IN NOVEMBER. These are the only two, I KNOW are honest and actually doing for the good of the ALL in RENO. AND neither is even in offices yet nor have they been, yet they have been fighting for your rights! You do not Know Niklas PUtnam name because he has been SERVING OUR COUNTRY, He is now ready to SERVE RENO and has been. With the drones coming to our area WE NEED HIM IN THAT ASSEMBLYMAN position, or you will once again see the business start here but the jobs leave the area. And no taxes being taken in either.

@BarrickGold , Niklas H. Putnam could use the same help you gave our schools when the current Commissioner felt it was not even worthy of a vote on the update on the Washoe County schools in and around Reno, NV. So if I could ask 1 favor, it would be find this man some backing so he can properly be placed on the ballot. In Facebook soon if not already since my internet is being guided (shall we say) by who know which crooked politician(s) in Nevada. I pray you will research him and find it in your heart and best interest of Reno, Nv to ‘FIND’ him some funding. His Campaign page is in Facebook. I don’t go there for nothing, any more.

Then folks laugh when I share that I much rather be around animals than people. they laugh harder when I share my recovery story when I honestly tell them I HATE people as a general rule of thumb. Somehow others see me as a lil socialite because I have learned how to do the public pleasantries. Make no mistake the woman that birthed me taught me well how to be a vicious _unt, do not mistake me choosing not to live that way; as not being able to be one in an instant.
AND in closing, I want to remind others that while I am physically disabled, The Creator will give whatever I need when I am being threatened….IF you break into this house again; I with the Creators help will be waiting for you. Take note; it has never been me that had to go to the hospital after. One more break in and I will apply for a conceal and carry. My brother says I can’t have a gun in his house…GOD says otherwise, I can move even right here in my truck. I will not leave RENO, NV until I can leave it better than I found it since I came here April 21 2012!

Which bring up another point, how can I get online and get the same news for a week or two? and it NEVER changes?

Elder’s Meditation of the Day May 21

Elder’s Meditation of the Day

“A vision could put you on a path you don’t want to follow.”
–Archie Fire Lame Deer, LAKOTA

There is a saying, “You move toward and become like that which you think about.” If we keep thinking about a bad thing, we will move in that direction. If we think about fear in some area of our life, we will probably experience this fear. We move toward and become like that which we think about. If we think about secret things, these secret things will come to pass. Our visions are very powerful. Visions determine our direction, our lives. If you think about lustful things, it’s a matter of time before you’ll be wrestling with it. We should think about our visions to make sure they include the Great Spirit in every area.

Great Spirit, today, give me Your vision to follow.


Msit Nókmaq/All My Relations,
When we keep our minds positive very little goes wrong, but when we change to negative things havoc comes forth. This is why we need to seek out good things in our lives. Daily news programs hardly ever tell of something good, so why watch it? There needs to be balance of good and bad not bad out weighing the good. Visions are a part of our well being and sometimes it is not good to pursue the vision after all.
~ Arthur Medicine Eagle- Sonier, MEGAMAW

Gitsch Manito-Creator,Wásóq-Spiritworld, Please help me to find balance in my life. Help me to see negative but not live it. Show me a direction where I can find the balance I need to live a good life.
Welálin/ Thank You, Msit Nókmaq, Chi~Miigwetch, Mitauke Oyasin

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Elder’s Meditation of the Day May 20

Elder’s Meditation of the Day

“The sacred ceremonies given to us by the Creator are the Heart of our existence. These ceremonies are our first duty.”
–Traditional Circle of Elders. NORTHERN CHEYENNE

Hidden in the ceremonies are many truths, many principles, many guidelines for living— our access to the Unseen World, healing and visions. Because the Indian People didn’t have schools or books, the Great Spirit gave us Ceremonies. The ceremonies are handed down from generation to generation to learn their meaning. Today, many Indian People live in cities or urban areas where it’s hard to learn the ceremonies. We need to go to the Elders and learn the ceremonies so we can pass them on to our children.

Great Spirit, teach me the Secrets of the Ceremonies.


Msit Nókmaq/All My Relations,
When a ceremony is opened and prayers have been offered for direction, How can one say it was done wrong? If that person wrote the book of rules on ceremony then maybe it could be true. But when Creator and the directions have been asked then who are we to tell another they are wrong or criticize them for their efforts. Prayer and Spirituality does not belong to any human, It all belongs to Creator.
~ Arthur Medicine Eagle-Sonier, MEGAMAW

Gitsch Manito-Creator, Wásóq-Spiritworld, Thank you for guiding me in the ways Please help my heart to remain true to the families. Please help me to distinguish right from wrong.
Welálin/ Thank You, Msit Nókmaq, Chi~Miigwetch, Mitauke Oyasin

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Elder’s Meditation of the Day May 19

Elder’s Meditation of the Day

“To be able to greet the sun with the sounds from all of Nature is a great blessing, and it helps us to remember Who is the real provider of all of our benefits.”
–Thomas Yellowtail, CROW

The Elders say we should pray to the East every morning. Just try it! Get up early in the morning, watch the sun and listen to the morning sounds, the birds, the winds; smell the air, feel the breeze and the warmth of the sun. Your mid will expand and you will experience oneness with the Great Spirit. You’ll realize who is really in charge. You’ll realize an interconnectedness. You’ll realize how much the Creator loves you! Just try it!

Great Spirit, today, let me feel the Earth, the Father Sun and your presence.


Msit Nókmaq/All My Relations,
Everyday just before the sun comes up all of the birds sing. I often wonder if they are praying and thanking creator for the new day. As Grandpa used to tell me “Watch the animals and they will teach
you”, Maybe this is one of those lessons on making sure to give thanks for what we are about to receive. How can I better my day? “It can be done with a simple Thank you to Creator”.

Gitsch Manito-Creator, Wásóq-Spiritworld, My life seems so different and full of goodness since you took alcohol and drugs away from me. All the things I was shown as a child are now coming back to me and it is my time to pass it on. Thank you for taking away my living hell. Thank you for allowing me the health to fulfill your wishes. Welálin/ Thank You, Msit Nókmaq, Chi~Miigwetch, Mitauke Oyasin
~ Arthur Medicine Eagle-Sonier, MEGAMAW

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Elder’s Meditation of the Day May 18

Elder’s Meditation of the Day

“…Grandmother the Earth. That power is here all the time. It is continuous, and nobody controls it.”
–Wallace Black Elk, LAKOTA

There are certain powers that the human being has no choice but to obey. We cannot negotiate or barter with this power. Our choice is either to conform or to live out of harmony. Whatever our choice, it will be the end result in our lives that we notice. So it is with the powers of the Earth which produce life. The Earth has the life force power. If anyone plants a seed, the seed will grow. The Earth treats everyone equally. The human cannot interfere, only obey. We should all show great respect for the Earth and Her powers.

Great Spirit, today, let me honor and respect the power of the Grandmother, the Earth.


Msit Nókmaq/ All My Relations,
Man “not-so” kind learned about the powers of the earth a long time ago. Man has harnessed the plutonium and uranium for bombs of mass destruction or Murder in the name of God. The balance of this earth is equal. Good and bad are on equal basis it is how we humans choose to use the two that will determine if we survive and remain on earth or not.
~ Arthur Medicine Eagle-Sonier, MEGAMAW

Gitsch Manito-Creator, Wásóq-Spiritworld, Thank you for showing me the powers within and allowing me a choice to save instead of destroy. Please help my brothers and sisters to see what they are doing to this earth by all the mass weapon manufacturing of today. Help them to find a change of heart and come back to the place where they were meant to be instead of seeking to destroy all life. Give me strength to make a stand to say “NO! We are tired of the killings”.
Welálin/ Thank You, Msit Nókmaq, Chi~Miigwetch, Mitauke Oyasin

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Elder’s Meditation of the Day May 17

Elder’s Meditation of the Day

“If the Great Spirit wanted men to stay in one place He would make the world stand still; but He made it to always change…”
–Chief Flying Hawk, OGLALA SIOUX

The Elders tell us change occurs in two directions. They say, “That which is built is constantly being destroyed; that which is loose is being used to build the New.” In other words, change is constantly going on. Many times we hear people say, “I hate change.” Does it make sense that the Great Spirit would design people to hate it? The Great Spirit designed people with change abilities such as visioning, imagery and imagination. Maybe we need to learn to use these tools and then we’ll look forward to change.

Great Spirit, today, let me see the harmony of Yours, truly changing world.


Msit Nókmaq/All My Relations,
In the Armed Forces they tell you to dig a hole and then when you are done they decide it was the wrong spot so they have you cover the one up and dig a new one. This makes for character adjustment and tolerance but at the time it is happening we only look at it as someone making us mad. When we learn to meld into the walk of life we can see things we did not see before. We learn to adapt but not and try to understand more efficiently. How does a butterfly start out as what we consider ugly then come forth as a beautiful flying creature? This mystery is what we humans should be learning in our lives. We all can be those Butterflies.
~Arthur Medicine Eagle-Sonier, MEGAMAW

Gitsch Manito-Creator,Wásóq-Spiritworld, Thank you for the changing of things. Seasons change and the earth and people do too. I am honored that you allow me to be a part of this great process or metamorphosis. Only you Creator have that answer and I thank you for sharing it with me.
Welálin/ Thank You, Msit Nókmaq, Chi~Miigwetch, Mitauke Oyasin

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Elder’s Meditation of the Day May 16

Elder’s Meditation of the Day

“It’s time. If you are to walk the path of heart, then it is time…”
–Nippawanock, ARAPAHOE

If not now, when? If not me, who? To walk the path of the heart is a great honor. Every human has the choice to walk this path, but very few will decide to make it. Why? Well, because you can’t act and behave like everyone else behaves. You must be the person who will learn to look within. You must be the person who will be fully accountable for yourself. You must be the person who prays and meditates. You must be the person who will sacrifice. You must decide to be a Peaceful Warrior. What will you decide today?

Oh, Great Mystery, lead me on the path of the heart.


Msit Nókmaq/All My Relations,
The path has many logs laying across it and also streams and rivers,there are lakes and oceans so we learn to cross many of them and if we can we also learn to go around them. We must not expect others to be like us because we are not clones in the sense of robots. We have looked at many beliefs and religions trying to find our peace but we failed,then we started walking the path and began looking within ourselves and all of a sudden we see the universe open up to us. Life was a wreck until we were led to the path. We found something We were looking for many years. We finally decided to look inside our self and found that all the answers had been there all along .
~ Arthur Medicine Eagle-Sonier, MEGAMAW

Gitsch Manito-Creator, Wásóq-Spiritworld, Thank you for allowing me such an honor to walk the path. Thank you for helping me to find myself. Thank you for walking with me all these years.
Welálin/Thank You, Msit Nókmaq, Chi~Miigwetch, Mitauke Oyasin

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Elder’s Meditation of the Day May 15

Elder’s Meditation of the Day

“We must have respect and understanding for women and all female life on this Earth which bears the sacred gift of life.”
–Traditional Circle of Elders. ONONDAGA

At a gathering of Native Elders we were told that many men of today had lost their ability to look at the Woman in a sacred way. They said we were only looking at Her in a physical sense and had lost the ability to look at Her sacredness. They said the Woman has a powerful position in the Unseen World. She has the special ability to bring forth life. They told us to start showing Her respect and to look upon her in a sacred manner. We must start this today.

Grandfather, show me how to see in a sacred way.


Msit Nókmaq/All My Relations,
Women can do what a man cannot do, a woman can give birth where a man is incapable of such. Most women have the patience to tend their children where men do not. Mothers raise the children more than the fathers do because they have more time with the children. We have lost many families to alcohol and drugs and the love and teachings are becoming lost forever. We must strive to change that and get back on the path. ” It all starts with admitting you really have a problem”, then there are steps to take in order to achieve serenity and sobriety. When this happens then we learn to love and respect our women, our children and our men and even our self, But until then we will continue to keep suffering.
~Arthur Medicine Eagle-Sonier, MEGAMAW

Gitsch Manito-Creator, Wásóq-Spiritworld, Thank you for showing me the steps I need to take to stay sober and thank you for showing me to love all the families no matter what they say or do.
Welálin/Thank You, Msit Nókmaq,Chi~Miigwetch, Mitauke Oyasin

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